to further focus on something you love more? Like I do enjoy doing video content, but I want to completely delve into producing and I know I'm massively incompetent at allocating mental resources

Maybe "pause" is a better term than drop

my entire life feels like I have to choose between multiple things that I want to do or learn and trying to decide which I want to do the most

and I still end up f***ing around anyway and doing none of it

kinda but i get paranoid about losing momentum w certain stuff

I'm in the same boat. Like I got iMovie pulled up and producing ideas set up from 10:30 am today and neither got done at 11:54 pm

you got adhd by any chance lol

it's horrid when you're in some fields where the time aspect is everything

Like there's almost zero value in doing music or TV related thoughts more than 1-2 weeks apart from their debut in today's world

I think I have undiagnosed BPD and mood swings based on a survey I did with some interns from my local med clinic, but not ADHD

very low energy mentally though, so maybe I just get over exerted easily

Yea valid
I feel you 100% though it’s tough tryna manage

Do both

could u expand on what U mean by that?

im speakin to a sense of achieving some creative "zone" or whatever & kinda mining that while its there for paranoia of going into some kind of creative drought

I was just speaking more to the importance of doing things with a sense of timeliness in my fields. Like if you want to do certain topics, viewers just won't be interested after a certain point.

I figured you were referring to in a different way such as that though, and I get you. With producing, if you don't mark down HOW you want to use samples, you'll never get the opportunity to use it quite the same way. Or you might just not be engaged to even do it outside of that zone

and the older/more busy you get, the less often and more fleeting those zones are

what do u mean by that second sentence

o ok thanks

Nah I just get existential like whats the point of my life i probs won't achieve s*** so what's the point really

Think I might have 2 get checked for this im kinda 90% sure I have it but also feel that it’s in some ways better to live as though I don’t & im petrified of prescriptions but maybe that’s ignorant

it’s worth looking into
I kinda knew I had it from about 15 but I always just thought I’d cope it out
My quality of life is definitely better w medication but psychs/therapists can also do a ton of stuff to help that’s not medication if you’re opposed to it

Oh for sure, I’ve got a background in film/tv stuff & yeah it is like that I found it kinda miserable so I dipped

there's a lane where you could just be like

"I'm the most expert on (x show) or I'm the funniest, so whenever I give my take on it, it's the one most worth looking for"

but you have to already have an audience req'd for that. Damn near impossible to build the base up for it without following the flow

Yes

Trying to unlock the mangekyou sharingan I see