I’m hoping that keeping a record of it to show to a professional will embarrass me enough to break this current slump 🤞

a few years ago i was drinking probably 375-400mL of 40% liqour a day, self medicating for bipolar, but eventually i got so f***ing emotionally f***ed up, i almost unalived myself, ended up in rehab, there i fell apart for a while but i ended up coming back stronger than ever

that darkness was something ive never seen before. i honestly became evil for a while. like i genuinely enjoyed pain and hated pleasure. something i didnt know was possible, i never wanna return to that

today was a L, i broke my door in my apartment cus i started thinkin bout this girl i kinda like, getting married to some f*** nigga, which is ironic cus that kinda makes me a f*** nigga lol

but nah the real L was the drinking that precipitated this. once ur dry just a tiny bit of drink, cus i jus had a glass of wine, is enough to cause extreme emotions

You have to be honest with yourself, and you have to want it for yourself.

S*** lowkey impossible tbh

I feel like you gotta just be a functioning drinker.

Like as long as you can wait til it’s end of the night and you have no commitments it’s somewhat “controlled”.

If you down so bad you drunk in the morning and at work then it’s time for immediate help lmao

I feel like in this current culture it’s lowkey impossible to just never drink but idk

Said it before and I’ll say it again, OP needs to develop a serious heroin habit before recording any more music. This would be the best possible career move for him.

He would produce a deranged, dark, d***ged out experimental album that would be praised. He’d give grizzly accounts of life and the situations he gets into while being a fiend, and hustling pills on the side to fuel his addiction as people begin to distance themselves from him. Soon it would come out about his addiction and the media would be buzzing. Scandal after scandal would arise and he’d be the most talked about person in the world as he continues down this dark path of addiction and insanity. Then, he would get arrested for possession and do a stint in jail, adding credibility to the hard image he’s been trying to adopt for sometime. The #FreeOP movement would be like nothing we’ve ever seen before and it would spark an international conversation about how we treat addicts (rehabilitative vs punitive punishment.

OP would get out, get clean, and become the face of the opiate epidemic sweeping North America, opening him up to even wider audiences and platforms. His first album after release would sell a million first week and be praised, as OP explores a whole new realm of lyrical content reflecting on his past degenerate behavior and becomes a symbol of hope for millions dealing with addiction. This would be great for his image, solidify him as one of the greatest rappers ever, and create worldwide change that benefits millions for years to come.

The best possible thing OP could do for his career is to start doing as much dog food as possible, as soon as possible.

the vibes I am getting from the first part of this post

Its easy imo, once u realize how poisonous that s*** is

Me reading this thread of 7 beers rn

If u do that s*** everyday itll catch up. But just once every few days/weeks aint too bad

3 shots in here

lmao f***in drake copypasta

Didn't know its a p drizzy copy pasta thought of v2 carti first

But it’s always gonna be a party, bar night with friends, date night, etc. that’s why I feel like the cultural presence of drinking makes it the most impossible to just never drink

Oh yea i mean if u actually have a social life ig it is a lot harder

I'm in full darkness brother

Getting sober is hard man especially when life is kicking ur ass, but what my therapist said is u gotta understand that everything else only falls into place once u get the drinking under control.

Ppl wanna wait for the right time to quit, but that will never come, u gotta slowly change ur lifestyle so that u dont even want to drink because u got other s*** going on. And for me i need something to calm down, rn im doing edibles a lot, which isnt ideal but way better than drinking daily

People criminally overlook how strong of a d*** alcohol is. Not to be a prude, but it kills more than every other d*** COMBINED.

Social connection

As someone who has had to quit multiple things multiple times

And only figured this one out for real this most recent time

After hearing everyone around me sober saying it for years

Reach out to current friends, family, folks you lost track of over the years, anyone that has wanted to hang out with you but you couldn’t make it work

Go to the gym, join a weekly or biweekly group around an interest— my gym has an LGBT climb night twice a month, been mad fun to climb w other gays

Get a library card read books read FICTION something that has a story and characters

Go to the movies by yourself go shopping with some of the money you’ve saved from not copping

And sometimes if you’re looking to just vegetate don’t beat yourself up for scrolling, watching s***ty TV, rewatching movies

When the urge comes up don’t just sit there — that’s when you should do something like the above — your brain will start to form a habit and when a craving/urge arises it will then know to look for something else

Here for you never forget you are doing the right thing