idk man, just wanted to reach out before crashing out

Why u about to crash out man?

I JUS WANNA CRASH OUT IN A TRACK

WHOA 😵

d**** man

i love d****

i love cocaine

but i love God and myself more

while i have faith in God's mercy/his plan for me

im also scared

bc while I don't want this man

i keep doing it

im literally praying i get caught with some by the cops

praying my mom catches me

praying on my own downfall

but praying i get to live to make this better and become the person i wanna be

i love life

i love sobriety

its just been hard

also bc i bought another half gram, which is stupid

everyone slides back once in a while, correct it and try your best not to do it again. God understands.

Try not to concern yourself on whether or not you do a half gram and focus on what’s making you feel the need to self medicate with d**** instead of taking them responsibly. Otherwise even if you’re sober you’ll be faced with similar problems as when youre not. Be safe fam!

changing an addiction is a long road with a lot of u turns usually but wanting to change is literally the most important part, never lose that

still don’t really know how/if pm’s work on here but you can always hit me brodie if you need to talk 🤝🏾

You will get out of this hole brother trust. I’ve been on d**** for 17 years of my life and went sober and the feeling is like beautiful. You seem like a good person bc you want off but you can’t and you want help. Don’t let it make you throw your life away. We’re all here rooting for you even if you think no one is

This was my problem too, it was a long ride but im 4 years off it now. You can do it.

This is a good inspiration for sobriety. I'm also trying to make s*** right, I believe in a higher power

Can’t serve 2 masters remember this

are you into age play

Coke is dangerous

Mashallah you’re still here and will be here so just do what you gotta do to be who you wanna be.

Don't end it before playoff finals. Anthony Edwards is on a crazy streak rn.

I really feel for you and what you're going through. It sounds incredibly tough, but it's clear you've got a lot of love for life and a strong desire to get better. Quitting something like cocaine is no small feat, and it's totally understandable to have those moments of struggle. It’s great that you’re reaching out and looking for support—just talking about it is a step in the right direction. Also, have you thought about getting some professional help or joining a support group? Sometimes having that extra backup can make a big difference.

Hang in there, and remember that each day is a new chance to move towards the life you want to live.

Can you check yourself in somewhere?

im scared bc i'd lose a months wages

but realistically, my dad can/would help

care to elaborate?

I understand what you mean on the surface level, yet ironically getting lit my heart yearns for God more

(tho idk, if i can do lines every 30 minutes, i can set time aside to pray 5x a day)

been there on the coke man. after u stop for a while u question why u did it so much in the first place

atm, being honest

despite knowing its bad, despite knowing its f***ing with my religion

I just want too. I'd say for as a means of escape, but if anything I think more about my recovery when f***ed up.

i just think it's the pseudo confidence I wish I had when sober, but at the same time, I actually do appreciate/love my sober self more, and think that despite the risk of fent nowadays, I don't necessarily see it as "bad" outside of that it f***s with my recovery .