im so tired of this life s*** and feeling depressed man. i literally have nobody in my life that cares about me, not even my own family f***s with me. im tired of working these s***, dead-end jobs with s***ty pay and not pursuing my dreams. the f*** is the point of me living if this is what i have to look forward to for the rest of my life? i wanna travel and see the world while making music dawg, not living in this s***hole that im currently living in rn. somebody on this forum just come and kill me man im tired of this

You not alone. Don’t do it.

I appreciate you being vulnerable enough to share your struggles with us OP. Thank you.

It may not mean much, but just know you have a community here that genuinely cares for your well being. We may s***post/get into silly arguments about nothing important, but when it comes down to it I know this place has heart and that we care about each other.

Do you have discord/or social media? I'd love to be friends with you/check up on how you're doing in the upcoming weeks.

We've been there in those moments my guy. You can let these feelings stay just a few more seconds, but I know you can get up tomorrow and make a small difference. It takes a little effort to find people who will care for you, but it's possible. The world is big and it can provide.

been there before @op

family is overrated

the only person you can truly Depend on is yourself

I feel like it might help you to temper your expectations of the people around you bc loyalty is only skin deep fr. Most people that won't lend a helping hand or a word of encouragement in the low point you're in today would be the ones knocking down your door and begging for a handout once you achieve your goals and firmly establish yourself. bc "we're family".

not gonna lie and act like the world is sunshine and rainbows but there is almost certainly hope for you if you keep working and gain connections to people that pull you up in life, as opposed to the people who look down on you, make you feel bad for prioritizing yourself instead of being a slave to them.

What’s the point of dying?

I feel the same way op but On top of that I feel physical pain from a possible tumor so it’s worse

@op
Create a plan of short term, medium term, and long term goals, and try to set a schedule to pursue them, just take baby steps

@mods ?

What can you control in your life right now

@op

if you can't make friends then take in content from business people, read books, listen to podcasts, interviews etc of people who do what you aspire to do at the highest level and apply what you view as the cores of what shaped their success to your life.

once you start to view your life as a business and your goals as the profit you'll get (even if not financial but just on the level of achievement), I think it gets a bit easier to focus on the grind and what you are going to need to add and subtract from your life to achieve your goals

there is no success in life that doesn't require sacrificing extreme amounts of time and energy for. If you feel like a 'balanced' life is more important than your ultimate goal, it will be very difficult to stay motivated and focused.

one of my biggest inspirations Michael Jackson was very dedicated to digging into the subconscious and training your mind to believe your goal is important and that they are possible to achieve, I have found a compilation of many of his quotes and training methods, so hopefully you find them useful or at least somewhat inspirational, hope you get a chance to read it.

truemichaeljackson.webnode.cz/thoughts-and-ideas/on-studying-and-success

"We can program ourselves to be the person we want to be, whatever the subject matter is, live in it by a mental physical program- a system of learning and doing. Studying all the greats in that field and becoming greater.

I believe we are powerful, but we don't use our minds to full capacity. Your mind is powerful enough to help you attain whatever you want."

• Michael Jackson

Stay strong bro, you got this.. hang on

I hear you

I’m sorry you feel that way @op

You’ve always been a great poster on this site, so it sucks you’re feeling down like this but don’t commit the ultimate act of unaliving yourself bc while you might think you don’t matter, you do.

Sometimes things don't go the way we want them. Make the most out of your situation. You should research jobs that pay better. I know there are jobs out there that you can do 7 on 7 off. Take your week off to pursue what you want. I don't know man. Am sure there's hundreds of people put there that also want a life with traveling and having fun.

Even if you don't reach what you want 100% perhaps you can find a lane you feel comfortable with.

You gotta make compromises. Life ain't tiktok shorts my man. Ups and downs will come and go.

Try some new hobbies and try to get rid of things or limiting things which make you feel s***ty.
Hobby one is important though, you need to have something to look forward to. Not really depressed but watching a movie at the theatre with my friends is kind of a ritual for me now, and I definitely look forward to it and it helps me get through the week.

@op please stop comparing your life with fake and imaginary social constructs about how successful life is

@op comparison is the theft of joy

if your passion is making music, you should focus on that even if it doesn't make you famous, art is the best way to live a fulfilled life, live for the love of the art, not for the love of money (like most braindead members here would say)

learn something new or higher level in your job, get a job where you do less, that's how I got it, I work this 9-5 since 5 years now continuously now I can finally enjoy it because I got a better position where work is chill af

it feels like you're seeing life through the wrong lens

sorry you’re going through it @op if you ever feel like talking i’m here for you man

i hope you know @mods doesn’t actually work

You're basically telling him to become incredibly fake and manipulative and see others as profit

That will send someone feeling down into a deeper hole than they started with

OP at this point take this s*** day by day

Let's see where the circus leads us

Has anyone checked on OP?

U can work s*** jobs an still chase ur dreams

Those dreams are the fuel for ur passion bro. Don't let that s*** go

This how I see it

No matter how ass life gets its like I'm not gonna b a b**** an just say f*** it imma fight to the death

Atleast that's how I'm tryna see s***