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And so Cliff swung gently side to side on his noose, wearing a cheerful smile with gleaming eyes.

“Can’t win em all, champ” a joyous tear slumped out of his left eye socket

“I’m doing a service! I’ll hold one of the smallest carbon footprints of my generation.” The sound of day to day traffic slowly faded into white noise as the days went on. Cliff enjoyed the simplicity of his new lifestyle. When the sun was out, his body felt a nostalgic sense of fulfillment fizz inside from the feet up. At night, not a noise could be heard with no one to invade such delicate safety.

“It’s okay. I am no longer a weight to any factor! My exclusion will prove useful and financially beneficial to those who need it most.” Cliff’s mother calls. She leaves a voicemail expressing her wish to be more in her son’s life. Cliff had never told his mother what address he lived at.

“I was a defect. Mommy’s expectations make perfect sense and I still couldn’t fall through! If she doesn’t have to worry about me, then money won’t be as bad!”

As Cliff’s body deteriorated, an expanding release was shredding through his entire body. Each day, a small part of him would drop off. A product of nature, Cliff embraces his decomposition in the drowning spiral of what once was reality. Opal white surrounds his vision behind a lucid watery image of his apartment. His hearing under deep water with a noticeably gentle white noise ringing. Cliff’s body was now nothing more than a part of the Earth’s naturally flowing orbit.

5 weeks had passed when Cliff’s landlord finally entered his apartment to bare witness to his state. His face, in death, still hid a pit of disappointment and shame on it.

“Just a little bit longer?”
As the news broke out, a funeral was put together by his family. Cliff was growing impatient with this process. He was ready to nap!

“Can’t a boy rest in peace? I never asked for this! Ungrateful people! Shows how much they knew me!”

Descending into the Earth, the last vibrations to enter Cliff’s ear were the blood curling shrills of his mother over his casket.

“I can’t catch a break can I? I assume you’ll judge me for this too? I’m never good enough for anything in your eyes! I kill myself and you’re telling me to come back? You’ve never respected my boundaries!”

Cliff laid in his coffin pouting. There wasn’t much for leg room and the pictures, flowers and personal belongings weren’t helping with his naps either.

“I don’t deserve any of this stuff! I f***ing hate these morons! Why won’t everyone just let me be? Soon the flowers will wilt and the pictures will fade. It’s like this is what they wanted.”

Cliff was remembered and well spoken of by all who he encountered in his life. Some had even came to visit him from time to time.

“You were the one person I never wanted to lose in my life. There isn’t a day I’m not reminded of you. I hope you’re doing better. I still love you.”

“It’s not the same without you. You’ll always be my brother. I just can’t seem to let it go and I’m sorry. I know you’d want me to move on, but I miss you so much.”

“Remember when we all went to the movie theater freshman year? I still have the pictures we took in the booth together. You were like the only person I felt truly understood me.”

“Your mom hasn’t ever been the same. I try to move on every day, but sometimes Marky mentions how he wants to be like his Cuncle and I just break down because you’re not here to be a role model in my kids’ lives.”

These visits, while sincere, were unheard as Cliff laid underground ruminating what his life was really like.

“It’s not like anybody ever appreciated me. I tried so hard to be mindful for them. And for what? So they could leave me for granted?”

As the years turned into decades, more of Cliff’s friends and family were buried into the ground. Many lay reflecting their entire lives, while some ache dormant to pain caused and inflicted to their loved ones. Cliff’s mother laid wide awake in silence. It was said after his suicide, Cliff’s mother never spoke again and often laid awake on her bed. She was later hospitalized for lack of any sustenance and water. Nothing could push her to engage in anything. She was caught on numerous occasions stealing pills from others hastily. Eventually losing her job and with no insurance to cover her medical expenses, Cliff’s mother became homeless and died of illness in an alley.

By Bill Traylor

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