Scratchin Mamba

2y

I mean compared to most people my age in my area i did tbh

Raised by a poor single mother who immigrated from Ethiopia with almost no other family here who had a bunch of trauma bc of what she went thru back home, relationship with my older brother has been wild too, govt was on our ass for nothing unnecessary audits that had her stressed tf out etc

When my dad was in my life it wasnt always the best either

Undiagnosed mental health issues

Def impacted me a lot, but what u gon do

Coulda been a lot worse, like way way worse

At the end of the day i look at my childhood fondly, knowing how things were and my mother still gave me beautiful memories that i will cherish forever and i'm very grateful for the way she raised me and all the values she instilled in me, and the bad things gave me a perspective that many others don't have

LordPrettyFlackoJR

2y

bad and difficult
immigrated parents,from diff countries,diff cultures,being mixed in a consersative white country that isnt big on multi culti
growin up on the more farmers side too

being on the spectrum

i was really a different, unique kid for all the people here

which explains why noone ever wanted to visit me or play with me
and why my parents had very low social interaction

throughout life, i cannot recall ever being praised or tagged as "me"
they would never acknowledge me as a person, only the stereotypes

have no real friends
nobody to ever support me, nor my family
even when we overachieve, we arent being recognized for it(white people get and take the cred)

teachers,trainers,workplace etc... everywhere there was bullying involved, making sure u knew, u werent like they were and would never be

ngl pretty scared about all this
cause it results into public emberassements, were people actively go out in group, to trash talk you in public, in front of audiences that dont know u, or want to know u
just to tame ur ego
and its all very normal, when it happens vs you

honestly i cant even remember most of my childhood, except that i always felt very ignored and neglected
i felt very different, being black adding my non diagnosed ass in the mix, and u get one hell of a funny cocktail
and that no matter what i did or who i was, i always got hated by everyone
i couldnt find a shadow of comfort or peace, there was no person there to push the bushes away and let the sun shine through

we were poor too, very poor
so buyin hapiness, or a vacation etc.. or even buying "status" wasnt in the cards for us

tbh even today, people dont know "me"
they know my name, for what i have achieved here in this region(which im proud af bout, cause thats more than 90% of the mfers that bullied me throughout my childhood), so my name is a local celeb status
but my face to them, is still strange

people only approach me in the french or english language, never the native

thats how i strange i am
thats how estranged ive grown
and thats how strange they see me

SolidSnaku

2y

feels like everybody stumbled on that mexican cartel vid with the chainsaw back in like '06 you know the one

plants

2y

i seen em all fam

DonEmeritus

2y

Stuck off the realness...respect

CrimsonArk

2y

I mean, to be fair, people use to gather and watch live, in person, executions of people on a semi-regular basis.

plants

2y

i was about to expose the f*** outta myself so imma just leave

Skateboard J

2y

Yeah, it affects me every day. Kinda ruined my life. Don’t wanna talk about it tho. But wish I could send a message to my younger self to change some things.