Yeah it sucks that it ended my psychedelics career. The previous trips were all great experiences.

This was around Yeezus era. I've thought about going on a trip for some time now, I'm in a better place in life and have a much better mindset.

He suffered from anxiety attacks and s*** for a while. That was just him tho, hopefully your friend is fine.

Go on
You mentioned dabbling in astral projection have you ventured beyond this plane?

Yes and then I wrote a poem about the experience

rebirth

breathe in, was this a bad idea?
the fog clouds her thoughts,
sorrows sing lullabies

dilated eyes reflect a great void —
what had been a great forest, now a barren wasteland
laid out before her

(lying on the ground her skin peeled itself off her flesh leaving her exposed and open to the elements which, after centuries, eroded her from the world yet she remained in the saplings that sprouted from her corpse, the vibrancy of her being could be heard in the whistling of the trees if you knew what to listen for and were a tree)

she reached out to cast an anchor,
searching for memories past.
her grip let go. falling, flailing, floundering.

despair enveloped her exquisite entity.
yearning for the darkness to depart;
the separation would be far from serene.

torn in two, pulled deep under
she couldn’t bear it for a second longer.
“fret not my fawn” it said sweetly.

warming waves washed over her delicate frame
eviscerating ego and rending her from reality.
lain back, breasts bare.

she emerged from the forest
materialized from the trees
left behind everything that leaves

clean again, free of the faults that flawed her skin
lavished with love she laughed eternally.
breathe out, there was never any doubt

Notice how it starts with breathe in and ends with breathe out and the doubts are erased. It felt like a moment stuck in eternity. I definitely came out the other side a better person but it was intense. Thoughts to your girl.

I feel like taking LSD thinking you’re just going to get high is very irresponsible. Too much information on the internet for that

My first time was with a blotter. I had slight hallucinations when I closed my eyes but nothing too crazy. Then I found a guy with gel tabs and it’s something completely different.

It makes my body feel really weird, like my stomach is collapsing on itself. But not like in a diarrhea or vomiting way.

Idc how people think this sounds but im pretty sure I experienced ego death before I ever tried psychs and it’s become a permanent part of who I am. But when I take the gel tabs it makes me hyper aware of some of the stuff I do or think throughput the day. Like I didn’t even want to get out of my car to pump gas bc I had to pay cash and I didn’t want to be seen by the cashier or anyone around me.

I really don’t think women or girls should be doing lsd lol.

I think I experienced ego death without d****, or maybe it was just dissociation. Isn’t it kinda the same thing?

This man driving on d**** and then whips out the sexist s*** at the end. Looks like your ego strong as ever bruv lmfaoooo ya hate to see it

Nah but I have experienced it from sleep deprivation and depression.

This is the guy that tried to accuse me of being a troll after saying nobody on earth should be eating meat lol

Experienced ego death and still thinks he's better than everyone else....ya hate to see it...

What are u talking about seriously

You have no idea who I am other than what you’ve seen me post but you’re telling me I think I’m better than other people even when I’ve said the opposite

Have you done lsd or shrooms before? With women? I have and she threw up shaking and stuff. I also read most of the posts itt and that’s why I made an innocuous joke about maybe women shouldn’t be doing these kind of d****

You also have no idea who I am other than what you've seen me post but that doesn't seem to matter.

Obviously I've done psychedelics before you'd know that if you, idk, read my first post itt. And it sure as hell didn't seem like a joke. Also, spoiler alert, men have bad trips too. Anyone can have a bad trip.

I don’t care about who you are or how you feel about stuff that’s why I didn’t make any assumptions about your character or quote you until you quoted me

Hey I see someone say some ignorant s*** like "women shouldn't do psychedelics" and I gotta say something. Simple as.

I hope that purposely misconstruing my personal opinions and life experiences as ignorance makes you feel better than me bc if that’s not what this is about then I have no idea why you keep f***ing quoting me.

You're literally arguing for the superiority of your own ego centric world view in a thread about ego death and u can't see that idk what else to say man

my dumb ass did 270 ug for the first time while being home alone n had a bad trip

Nah I'm too p**** to do 300ug.

even at 100 ug with smoking on the peak feels like my mind entered a new realm

yes a few times

the last time was particularly intense

u take on different forms

different states, liquid solid gas

then eventually you are nothing

and that feeling of being nothing is simultaneously the most freeing and the scariest feeling of all-time.

this are from doctor monitored ketamine infusions btw.

I went past ego death and corrupted my brain to the point that it had to be deleted. I simply sat there for an hour with my eyes closed deleting all my thoughts, memories and biases until I was reborn a new person.

I would not recommend it, I was unable to remember people I met months ago, I lost all my interests and personality, I was emotionally a baby for a solid 2 years and couldn't even hold a conversation let alone a job.

Be safe w/ phycs fam, I'm doing f***ing great now though so like if you're an omega loser it's better than jumping off a bridge.

I corrupted it by having too bad of a trip, I kept having violent and psychotic thoughts for months and the only way to recover was to delete everything.

It sounds fun to "see everything", but if you actually see everything you won't be able to live in the normal world anymore. Just stick ot micro doses and the occasional 3Gs of shrooms, don't over do it.

Think about d**** like you do math. It's actually useful to know calculus and linear algebra and entry level uni maths and s***, but if you spend 20 years learning advanced theoretical bullshit you're prolly wasting your time unless you're a researcher. Same goes with d****, it's actually useful to do shrooms and LSD sometimes, but if you do too much you're just wasting your time and mind unless you're ready to commit your life to being a professional crazy person. As an amateur crazy person I can tell you the grass is still greener on the other side.

I ended up with mental health issues after my ego death trip

Anxiety and random panic attacks slowly started creeping up into my life.

Never ever before in my life have I had anxiety issues or a panic attack or anything of that sort. Always was super confident about myself.

The ego death trip was the first time I ever had a panic attack. I was about 23 y/o at that time.

Nowadays, anxiety and panic attacks are a part of my daily life.

My ADHD also skyrocketed after the trip.