some s*** happened to me about a year and a half ago, long story short I lost every friend I had at my college.

ever since, I've noticed it's been super hard to grow attached to people. I've made new friends since the s*** went down, of course, and it's not like I don't care at all about them, like these are people I'd do almost anything for if they need it, I definitely care about their well-being. But I've realized I stopped caring about whether or not they stay my friend. Like it's so easy for them to just drift away, I don't do anything to stop it. I don't even realize they're drifting away most of the time. If they do somehow drift out of my life, there's no emotional response or anything, I legit don't care.

I'm worried about this. if I can't get attached to people, making long lasting friends gets a lot harder.

I think part of this is because my ADHD. Look up RSD and social withdrawal, and you will see why I'm drawing that connection. There aren't any meds I'm aware of that treat that aspect of adhd tho

Just reach out and text them bro I’m sure they’ll appreciate it if you feel them drifting. I wish I was like that cuz I’m on the opposite end of the spectrum

Maybe some of it is in your head to tho?

Just do it

Well you clearly just dont care about those particular people if you dont even notice them leaving your life

drop acid and cry about it

not said in a dismissive way. feel the f*** out of your feelings bro

okay, and i want to change that....

You cant force yourself to care people will enter and exit your life all the time, that's just the way it goes

Someone becoming important to you is just something that happens naturally. If that NEVER happens then I dunno, talk to a therapist or something.

yeah that's just it

i can't force myself to care but i want to care idk it's weird

This or shrooms.

Either gonna find peace with yourself how you are now or experience a revelation and make change.

well i have found peace with myself as i am, that's just it lol

I'm totally okay being alone, again the point is it doesn't bother me when people come and go.

I'm just worried abt if that's gonna impact my ability to make good long-term friends. Like yeah maybe the right people just haven't entered my life, but also maybe they have and I've squandered that opportunity by not caring enough. idk maybe it's pointless to worry about it at all

That’s what i’m saying. You either gonna change yourself to care about people coming and going or you not. Or like you said you might just find out that you worrying is pointless.

For me, shrooms heighten my feelings and make all my thoughts make sense. Found s*** out about myself i was questioning for years. Just throwing out the suggestion. But peace to you my guy

s*** man maybe i will check that out

being unattached is actually a good thing

not sure why you wanna be attached again

im worried it's gonna make it impossible to have long-term friends

nah it's gonna help actually

I guess we'll see

you don't

Expose your private parts

better this way 2bh

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the fact that you're worried implies there's fear

all fear is bullshit

whatever you went thru forced you to grow and step into a state where you're not attached to friendships anymore

it's a change so it's painful. but don't second guess yourself

all relationships are temporary so not being attached is gonna help you in the future by not placing your sense of worth on other people who are gonna come and go

yeah, i know attachment is the root of all suffering

now I've got to figure out how to love without attachment

ya dont need d**** for this.

Op fr you should cry it out. Seriously. Feel your emotions at ten billion percent. Kinda made me sad reading that

I’m only saying this because it seems that you have some unresolved feelings about it.

Friends are effort, you have to make that effort to keep friends.

What happened though man