In the protection of your mental innocence I will not suggest my personal solution to this problem of yours. Bc I’m a f***ed up guy and idk how old you are and s*** so,

but this isnt about me ofc but even I can tell that if you don’t actually trust this girl or think she’s reciprocating the same feelings then you should break up before you accidentally have a child with a woman you don’t love trying to fulfill this sexual desire of yours that again im the last person to be judging someone but bruh that sounds f***ed up how you’re explaining that the only reason you’re still with her is because you want to try something that’s supposedly so uncomfortable that you don’t even know if you’ll find anyone that would do that with you.

That sounds like that might be the genesis of the rest of your issues, but if it is you’re probably well aware of that and you wanted or needed to hear sb explain it to you in this way. so you’re welcome maybe and if you want to know what I would do if I were you I’ll tell you rn.

Do push ups

Feels hopeless sometimes. Like there no way out.

Bruh when I read this I thought someone put you in the wrestling move and slammed you so hard you needed to question it

Tf you mean b****

OP explicitly said that he didn't want to mope around and was actively looking for solutions. Don't understand all these underhanded replies really seems like misery loves company.

Start looking into the future OP.

And see what continuing on this path will do to you in the next 5 years, 10 years, and even 20 years.

Do you find that life you are continuing on worth it? If not, start making small changes. Gradual steps.

so you're saying there's other fish in the sea? even if you had hard feelings for her?