damn I feel u on that one... that s*** pretty rare tho I feel like

its not too late fam

at the bottom and in the gutter the only way is up

dont let expectations get you down, all you need to do is find a way to enjoy yourself

sending u strength my bro

@OP

I'm sorry your dad died. I'm fortunate to have not had any significant losses yet despite being a bit older than you.

Why don't you have any friends or family to speak to? Why don't you want to speak to them?

What is DD? If its a work place, go back and speak to your supervisor or manager and explain that your dad died and you didn't know how to handle it but you want your job back. Otherwise get a job at McDonalds or some fast food place. Its not glamorous work but it will keep you busy. Employers may be sympathetic to your work history gap due to losing your father but you need to keep your head in the game.

I understand OP, you are loved trust me

I felt like this at one point, you have to find out that this person that you think you are is only you in a moment, you CAN change and be a happier person like i'm sure you were as a young child.

for me it took a safe moderate dose of mdma with meditation for me to realize that I'm not doomed and trapped like I thought I was. I can only recommend what worked for me but I want you to know that you're not alone and a change for the better can come, hold on!

obviously I dont know you but i have dealt with many people close to me with similar situations and I truly care about the well being of people especially when I see people suffering.

We can give thoughtful and objective advice that maybe your friends and family cant give.

the internet is actually a solid place for advice because you can open up more because in reality we dont ever have to meet you and have no direct connection to your personal life. There's not stakes at hurting or offending anyone.

What are people that you know in real life going to do differently? While having a physical support system is amazing, in reality its not possible to overcome your struggles without one.

Bro i know what i want to do in life I’m just not making progress and I’m alone

I need help

I don’t have anyone that knows bro

My mom just saw me about to cry and did nothing about it

my life lost most of its meaning since my moms died and me and my sisters relationship went to s*** but we gotta keep moving fam. maybe one day life will work in our favour, who knows. dont do anything you cant turn back <3

there has to be someone in your life who cares about you, call theem right now and tell them how you're feeling, it will help you I promise

bro hmu if you need help. u can talk to me

@op

Where do you live mayne(general state) and how old are you?

If getting away from where you are (literaly and mentally) try getting a job on a cruise ship. Take a job somewhere far away.

If it is more your health (mental and physical) then no matter where you run you will face adversity. Asking “why me” is not enough in this world. S*** will happen to you regardless of what you do and it is an unfortunate truth but its also double sided. Good s*** will happen too.

Im a good ear, so are a lot of folks on this site, dont hesitate to drop a number in my pm brodie lets ft or some s***. Play games.

You are not alone, and you are not over. Salaam brother

sorry about your mom my g

ur young family

a lot if not all 20yo nowadyas dont have their s*** in order

all my friends went to good colleges and most of them started working now at 25/26 fr

If you know what you want to do then set small goals for yourself. Theres gonna be moments where you want to just give up and drop it but if you're truly passionate about something you can obtain it. If you think otherwise you're being unreasonable and ridiculous.

Trying not to say obvious s*** that you e already tried so im sorry if i did. Hard to get new thoughts out when i dont know you like that. So lets get to know eachother boss

That s***s stupid tho

Yea i know niggas is in third world countries f***ed up and I’m sitting here on a MacBook bro playing PS3

But I got problems
I don’t know how to fully express what I’m saying

moving out would be drastiic enough of a change that you would be forced to survive, and when you are simply surviving there's no time to feel sorry for yourself, maybe this is your solution? idk

Yea i love that album

I used to have those all the time but idk this hurts right now

I guess it’s that but i have to figure it out

you guys are so nice in here i could cry some really good people itt