better.
I have been doing more healthy dietary changes that have been helping.

I feel selfish though...

I appreciate you checking in fam

What’s got you feeling selfish?

You’re not a burden

I’m glad to hear you’re getting better

I feel you OP
I feel that way most days

Thanks man. Yeah i think it’s just super f***ing selfish to have such strong feelings for someone that is taken by someone that you also really consider a great friend.

It’s just very overwhelming and feels very toxic for me.

I’m sorry dude. No one should have to feel this way. I don’t wish it on anyone. The emotional waves just crash and send me spiraling down.

forgive yourself OP
get that self hate out your heart

This is solid advice. I am feeling way better today tbh. I feel really good

just go w/ the flow

I feel that bro. I still have my moments where I feel like I’d be better off dead somewhere. But you have to keep fighting. Yeah, it’s hard and you’re going to get knocked down a lot, trust me, but never give up. Remember your life matters too. You got people that love and care about you. Reach out to them, seek therapy if you like. You’d be surprised at the fact someone you know may be fighting the same battle as you. Don’t give up. Never do that.

Uh dude this is the “life” section

Emotional slave s***

Always remind yourself that you still have a lot to offer the world and you're not ready to get counted out, because if you count yourself out, the world will be robbed of your greatness. Keep pushing @op