Some days ago i almost killed myself with alcohol (accident - too drunk) I was supposed to be taken to a hospital because i was barely breathing, but still survived thank god. I was told i was breathing 5-6 times a minut.

And yesterday i was inches away from getting hit by a car. So i was on one of these small scooters and while i was scooting over the street this car almost hit me while i was recording myself driving. he was so close man but he managed to make a turn, i think that if there were other cars around he wouldnt have been able to make the turn and probably hit my ass.

Anyways the last week because of these incidents ive been feeling mad weird about death. Ive been careful as f***. I cant even drink coca cola without feeling bad about myself lol. I basically quit smoking cigs, didnt have one for like 5 days and I dont even want any. Idk if i should see a therapist this s*** got me scared as f*** tho.

glad you're okay. see a therapist. stop recording yourself while riding.

use it to better yourself; Motivational anxiety

get well man, good thing your stop smoking bad habit which is good to break

talk to your family about how you feel

thank God youre okay

death is weird af man. Like if the car haf hit me i could probably be dead, i think its weird to think about. Its like my perspective off death has changed, I always knew i would day some day but you really never know when. Idk if it even makes sense my mind dont make sense rn tbh. I need to do some positive s*** tomorrow

Glad you’re safe. Do things you enjoy to take your mind off s***

Not to be harsh, but it sounds like you should stop doing stupid s***

Tbh

Both the situations could have been avoided if he simply acted responsibly lol

Stay safe though OP

Too many people get f***ed up on them scooters

When it’s my time to leave this earth I don’t want it to be on a scooter

the one with the alcohol i ended up getting a blackout so after that i dont remember anything god knows what i did. I was found by my friend in a bathroom unconscious he said. Why he didnt call an ambulance i will never know. Supposely i was puking while unconscious my nigga that sounds spooky af. And he said he later was counting my breathing and it was like 5-6 times a minut. Again why he didnt call and ambulance i will never know.

Yesterday i was just tryna record a snap and the car came. Probably my own fault tho.

Get a gopro

I've been in that exact situation several times & tbh I'm surprised I never died of alcohol poisoning, but he probably didn't call the ambulance because he didn't want to get in trouble

And you're lucky that you passed out laying on your side otherwise you could've drowned in your own vomit

ye man thats what i mean. The thing with the alcohol f***ed me up because i didnt even know it was that easy to die by alcohol. I always thought you would need a lot off alcohol for it to kill you. But now i think a vodka and a half would probably do the job. And the puking thing also f***ed me up because i didnt even think about that. Well, i dont remember it but it could have happened. We need to be careful when we drink. That s*** could have easily went left.

The scooter thing was just me being a ret-ard Im not even gonna use it anymore

Glad you're okay. Just stop recording yourself while riding lol and be more cautious. You can't just go to Walmart and buy a new life. You only got one

avi?

Definitely need to talk to someone about all these things OP u need a good listener that can help you and give you advice. This subject is too important to keep bottled up inside u.

Basically why i stopped drinking anything with sugar and caffeine

ok

What were you drinking and how much to cause such an effect?

Were you mixing liquors?