This year has been going downward for me. Lost the love of my life, dropped out of college at the last semester, charged with atempted murder, paid a lot of cash to get out, cause where Im from money talks louder, so the feds released me after I paid bail. But that situation left me with so much damage, and trauma.

I dont even know why Im posting this s*** here, but I dont even have a second in my life, that I dont spend regretting the reckless s*** I did. The anger always get the best of me, I think Im tangled to the harsh past I lived as a kid. Im just drunk and sad all the time. I cant change s*** but just learned to live wit it.

"charged with atempted murder"

why did you catch a AM

cant even murder people without f***ing up

damn my nigga spilling his heart out and all niggas care about is an AM charge

he just slipped that in there i was caught off guard

attempted murder

You have anybody you can talk to?

I hope everything works out for you in life, but please seek out help before it's too late brother

please

Get back in school and get back on that good path you were on fam. You csn get your life right 👍🏾

Try meditation for your anger issues

Also try reading Wisdom of Insecurity by Alan Watts, he's one of the guys that brought eastern philosophy to the West, and I think Buddhism is one of the best tools there are to overcome trauma without getting stuck in a loop with medications and things like that

It will also make you feel better about dropping out of college

Sometimes we need to get to rock bottom to bounce back, it's ok. There is help and hope for you, start with small things to slowly get back on your track to a better life. You are not your mistakes, let's go

violence is never the answer

Yeah definitely peep Meditations, helped me a lot personally... And you can always get back to college, don't let that bring you down OP

You talking about meditating or the book Meditations by Marcus Aurelius?
That's an amazing book tbh even if I wasn't talking about that, it could surely help

Just grind bro get your priorities together

And stop attempting to kill people