Mar 16, 2023·1 reply
ProhibitionDevGood luck brother, there's nothing to be scared of. You'll meet people from all walks of life and even though they might not have it together, they're going to believe in you like nobody has before and it's honestly one of the most beautiful things.
If you can, bring some books to help pass the time!
Do you remember reading anything particularly memorable in treatment? I read The Stranger and it was amazing lol
- Mar 16, 2023·1 replyHrdBoildWndrlnd
Do you remember reading anything particularly memorable in treatment? I read The Stranger and it was amazing lol
My mom sent me the Crazy Rich Asians trilogy and I read that s*** in one week, Kevin Kwan a crazy nigga for that one
Tho the book that laid the biggest foundation I'd say was "Slave: The Hidden Truth About Your Identity in Christ" which really opened my eyes to Christianity and ironically, helped me embraced Islam in the sense of finding out what it really means to have a "Lord", tho didn't finish it due to lack of time/I wasn't religious at the time enough to care, though I wanna reread it.
Mar 16, 2023ProhibitionDevbump (pun fully intended, only reason why I bumped it at 2:16 a.m)
still haven't touched coke in over 2 years though, contemplated it a lot but eh. did drink a few months ago which wasn't the worst, more so just put in a compromising position.
Takes a lot of strength to do what you did fr
Mar 17, 2023HrdBoildWndrlndIt's a lot of people's first step to living an ok life! I remember treatment was the first place I had felt some peace or some sense of "ok" in years. I hope you find some peace there too for however long you're there
Damn bra yall gave me some hope for real. Not gone lie its a dark time but I feel theres a chance, cant even imagine what an ok life could look like right now thats crazy
- Jan 30·6 replies
ok so like
I relapsed the night before my show in a different city. Went with my girl to the gay bar because we were bored/there's nothing to do at night, and I met an older gentleman who gave me a free molly.
After that, I kinda just....started going hard. That night popped that E, drank a lot, met an old friend and did a line of blow (my d*** of choice), blacked out and woke up in a motel room to a nigga smoking meth with my shirt off smh
Hit up my homegirl and her and her man and we got a motel room and she gave me some shrooms and yk, after doing all the s*** I did that night, I thought I was finna die but I didn't.
Did my show, it was a sucsess, but since then idk.
Been drinking a lot more, every otherday after work until one day me and ol girl went out and I met a coke plug and nigga....
I only bought 2 grams, one last month, one on Friday and damn uhhh....I need to get my s*** together fr. I'm determined too.
(I'm finishing the gram tonight/drinking like 4 shots of tequila to balance myself out, which is some s*** but yea. Ty for reading if you did, I kinda needed to vent this out I guess, I'm certain on picking sobriety up again, especially since I converted to Islam but yea nah s***s hard my nigga)
- Jan 30·1 reply
idk what the "trigger" was, but my mom had a heart attack in the midst of this and idk, brought me back to a darker place, which isn't an excuse since I gotta be a strong nigga for my momma but its hard
Jan 30·1 replyProhibitionDevok so like
I relapsed the night before my show in a different city. Went with my girl to the gay bar because we were bored/there's nothing to do at night, and I met an older gentleman who gave me a free molly.
After that, I kinda just....started going hard. That night popped that E, drank a lot, met an old friend and did a line of blow (my d*** of choice), blacked out and woke up in a motel room to a nigga smoking meth with my shirt off smh
Hit up my homegirl and her and her man and we got a motel room and she gave me some shrooms and yk, after doing all the s*** I did that night, I thought I was finna die but I didn't.
Did my show, it was a sucsess, but since then idk.
Been drinking a lot more, every otherday after work until one day me and ol girl went out and I met a coke plug and nigga....
I only bought 2 grams, one last month, one on Friday and damn uhhh....I need to get my s*** together fr. I'm determined too.
(I'm finishing the gram tonight/drinking like 4 shots of tequila to balance myself out, which is some s*** but yea. Ty for reading if you did, I kinda needed to vent this out I guess, I'm certain on picking sobriety up again, especially since I converted to Islam but yea nah s***s hard my nigga)
Have you had any bad experiences while high before this?
- Jan 30·1 replyyungboiezi
Have you had any bad experiences while high before this?
physically or mentally bad?
and since i started getting high, or since I relapsed?
- Jan 30·1 replyProhibitionDev
physically or mentally bad?
and since i started getting high, or since I relapsed?
Both
And since you started getting high
Jan 30·1 replyProhibitionDevidk what the "trigger" was, but my mom had a heart attack in the midst of this and idk, brought me back to a darker place, which isn't an excuse since I gotta be a strong nigga for my momma but its hard
Could it have been stress about your show? I’ve noticed I’m really self destructive around big deadlines
- Jan 30·1 reply
Been thinking a lot about relapsing recently, seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow tho
- Jan 30worldpeace
Could it have been stress about your show? I’ve noticed I’m really self destructive around big deadlines
nah, i did a show in my home city a month before and I was bragging about how I was sober before I premired a song that I wrote when drunk
what I will say tho is I changed my setlist from more wholesome songs to degenerate hype songs about doing blow and f***ing hoes and maybe that manifested
Jan 30·1 replyIts really hard to sometimes just tell urself no. But we gtta keep doing it. Sorry to hear about ur relapse. But we gnna push thru
- Jan 30·3 repliesyungboiezi
Both
And since you started getting high
only "bad" expirence I'd say (besides thinking I was gonna die) was when my mom found out I was doing d****
I went out at 7 am after doing coke/drinking all night to f*** a trans nigga from Grindr and THAT'S how my mom caught me, since I left a rolled up dollar bill with some residue on the floor in my room
- Jan 30
F*** DUDE, I actually hella like this feeling I kinda hate it lmaooo
- Jan 30CutiePieHole
Its really hard to sometimes just tell urself no. But we gtta keep doing it. Sorry to hear about ur relapse. But we gnna push thru
We will brother
- Jan 30
what I will say is I'm glad I found Islam nigga like
EVERYTIME I decide to drink/get high, I KNOW God wants better for me, and I wake up with my heart full of remorse, yet love knowing how God is so merciful
- Jan 30·1 replyProhibitionDev
only "bad" expirence I'd say (besides thinking I was gonna die) was when my mom found out I was doing d****
I went out at 7 am after doing coke/drinking all night to f*** a trans nigga from Grindr and THAT'S how my mom caught me, since I left a rolled up dollar bill with some residue on the floor in my room
Did that make you want to quit in the first place or was it something else?
proper 🔩Jan 30ProhibitionDevMy mom sent me the Crazy Rich Asians trilogy and I read that s*** in one week, Kevin Kwan a crazy nigga for that one
Tho the book that laid the biggest foundation I'd say was "Slave: The Hidden Truth About Your Identity in Christ" which really opened my eyes to Christianity and ironically, helped me embraced Islam in the sense of finding out what it really means to have a "Lord", tho didn't finish it due to lack of time/I wasn't religious at the time enough to care, though I wanna reread it.
first part
Jan 30·1 replyHow long do people typically stay in rehab?
- proper 🔩Jan 30ProhibitionDev
ok so like
I relapsed the night before my show in a different city. Went with my girl to the gay bar because we were bored/there's nothing to do at night, and I met an older gentleman who gave me a free molly.
After that, I kinda just....started going hard. That night popped that E, drank a lot, met an old friend and did a line of blow (my d*** of choice), blacked out and woke up in a motel room to a nigga smoking meth with my shirt off smh
Hit up my homegirl and her and her man and we got a motel room and she gave me some shrooms and yk, after doing all the s*** I did that night, I thought I was finna die but I didn't.
Did my show, it was a sucsess, but since then idk.
Been drinking a lot more, every otherday after work until one day me and ol girl went out and I met a coke plug and nigga....
I only bought 2 grams, one last month, one on Friday and damn uhhh....I need to get my s*** together fr. I'm determined too.
(I'm finishing the gram tonight/drinking like 4 shots of tequila to balance myself out, which is some s*** but yea. Ty for reading if you did, I kinda needed to vent this out I guess, I'm certain on picking sobriety up again, especially since I converted to Islam but yea nah s***s hard my nigga)
- Jan 30·1 replyyungboiezi
Did that make you want to quit in the first place or was it something else?
Nah, it only like....made me want to be more "sneaky" with it
What made me go sober was going to Vegas to see my family while I was on a bender, got some free coke from some nigga at the Casino, ended up fighting my dad that night (tbf, even tho I acted an ass bc of my addiction, everyone blamed my dad bc he called my mom a w**** right in front of me).
My grandma called me at the airport and suggested that I should go and that she was praying for me, and that's what woke me up.
- Jan 30·1 replyMac Wit Da Cheese
How long do people typically stay in rehab?
30 days (me), 60, or 90
some places do a year but idk
- Jan 30worldpeace
Been thinking a lot about relapsing recently, seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow tho
please don't brother.
on my journey, idk maybe it's what I "needed" to get a clear mind, but nah if your on that path stick to it brother
- proper 🔩Jan 30·1 replyProhibitionDev
only "bad" expirence I'd say (besides thinking I was gonna die) was when my mom found out I was doing d****
I went out at 7 am after doing coke/drinking all night to f*** a trans nigga from Grindr and THAT'S how my mom caught me, since I left a rolled up dollar bill with some residue on the floor in my room