Just finished rehab [AMA] UPDATE: Relapsed after 2.5 years of sobriety (still AMA)

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  • sandshrew

    I only tried it once and beat up my step brothers uncle for no reason

    last time i did it, i fought my dad so i get it

  • Jan 30
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    Hope you good my nigga.

    Sound like you got s*** under the surface you should deal with though. Therapy, Spirituality etc. to get you right. Because the d**** not really the problem, you're just under the false impression that they offer a temporary solution. If it's temporary it's not really a solution though.

    Resolve your inner s***. Admit to your s*** to yourself, to God, then start the work. Bc it's gon take work, man.

    Get ya mind right, family.

  • ProhibitionDev

    only "bad" expirence I'd say (besides thinking I was gonna die) was when my mom found out I was doing d****

    I went out at 7 am after doing coke/drinking all night to f*** a trans nigga from Grindr and THAT'S how my mom caught me, since I left a rolled up dollar bill with some residue on the floor in my room

    This nigga wild lmaoo

  • ProhibitionDev

    ok so like

    I relapsed the night before my show in a different city. Went with my girl to the gay bar because we were bored/there's nothing to do at night, and I met an older gentleman who gave me a free molly.

    After that, I kinda just....started going hard. That night popped that E, drank a lot, met an old friend and did a line of blow (my d*** of choice), blacked out and woke up in a motel room to a nigga smoking meth with my shirt off smh

    Hit up my homegirl and her and her man and we got a motel room and she gave me some shrooms and yk, after doing all the s*** I did that night, I thought I was finna die but I didn't.

    Did my show, it was a sucsess, but since then idk.

    Been drinking a lot more, every otherday after work until one day me and ol girl went out and I met a coke plug and nigga....

    I only bought 2 grams, one last month, one on Friday and damn uhhh....I need to get my s*** together fr. I'm determined too.

    (I'm finishing the gram tonight/drinking like 4 shots of tequila to balance myself out, which is some s*** but yea. Ty for reading if you did, I kinda needed to vent this out I guess, I'm certain on picking sobriety up again, especially since I converted to Islam but yea nah s***s hard my nigga)

    Take it easy bruh. You'll bounce back tho

  • I had a bit to drink yesterday but not much

    Relapsing sucks

  • There's rly no good excuse for relapsing. We gotta b hard on ourselves and be responsible

  • ProhibitionDev

    ok so like

    I relapsed the night before my show in a different city. Went with my girl to the gay bar because we were bored/there's nothing to do at night, and I met an older gentleman who gave me a free molly.

    After that, I kinda just....started going hard. That night popped that E, drank a lot, met an old friend and did a line of blow (my d*** of choice), blacked out and woke up in a motel room to a nigga smoking meth with my shirt off smh

    Hit up my homegirl and her and her man and we got a motel room and she gave me some shrooms and yk, after doing all the s*** I did that night, I thought I was finna die but I didn't.

    Did my show, it was a sucsess, but since then idk.

    Been drinking a lot more, every otherday after work until one day me and ol girl went out and I met a coke plug and nigga....

    I only bought 2 grams, one last month, one on Friday and damn uhhh....I need to get my s*** together fr. I'm determined too.

    (I'm finishing the gram tonight/drinking like 4 shots of tequila to balance myself out, which is some s*** but yea. Ty for reading if you did, I kinda needed to vent this out I guess, I'm certain on picking sobriety up again, especially since I converted to Islam but yea nah s***s hard my nigga)

    u got this

  • Lets go.

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    ProhibitionDev

    It was certainly something, and I wanted to say I missed y'all (I was lurking on a phone my roommate snuck in but mostly music)

    Certainly saw somethings, and gained a new perspective on things and uh yea. Glad to be alive for the first time in a while.

    How long you went for?

  • nooo 💔💔

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    PreciousCry

    How long you went for?

    30 days

  • ProhibitionDev

    30 days

    Dope

  • ProhibitionDev

    only one/two more line out of this sack then I'm done frfr

    i also told my girl, and she's here to support me <3

    relapsing happens, finish the bag (because we know u won't throw it out) but that has to be it

    if you've been sober once u can do it again it's gonna be easier than last time

  • @op u already know this but u gotta surround yourself with sober friends 24/7 for like a week

    just do hella s*** and be around people until u can do the rest on your own

  • I got 2.5 years too. I appreciate you posting this as hard as it may have been, I relapsed after 8 months at my first go around so I know the feeling.

    Have you tried AA?

  • I'm in a substance abuse recovery program rn got a meeting in 15 minutes. Just helps to be accountable to someone

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    Nigga I love d**** wtf

  • I hate this

  • ProhibitionDev

    Nigga I love d**** wtf

    this aint it bro

  • ProhibitionDev

    Nigga I love d**** wtf

    Damn my nigga, you gotta get ahold of this shut, you'll be speeding into a wall soon, be cruel to your needs and cold turkey that shut, niggas overused toxic to death but you gotta have those methods that are cruel to your primal needs. I was deep in weed and pills man, and tbh, I won't stop but I've lessened it, this ain't it bro bro

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