pretext: so I been living at home, helping take care of my mom, which has been a mental toll in the sense of shes disabled and I gotta pick up the slack but it's an honor to do so.

that being said though, i relapsed on cocaine and alcohol really bad last year and it kinda fractured our relationship, so we tried to set up me going to rehab, but it still hasn't opened up (i've been sober since then, over a month now) and well....I think while I understand her frustrations with my behavior, all I've been doing is staying at home/playing Tony Hawk because she doesn't even trust me to go to work.....yet b****es about how we're broke.

At this point, I'm doing all I can to get better, and she's just stagnant and always angry. That's just my mom, I love her, but I'm honestly tired of it. I'm thinking of just grabbing my laptop, my recording equipment, my camera, and just heading out. I do have a communist homeboy who would probably lemme crash, as well as one of my white homies who went through something similar.

That being said, I'm probably just mentally frustrated/going thru my own thing with addiction, idk. I don't f*** with anything hard besides coke, I don't even have the money to do that/nor have any incentive to break sobriety by drinking. What do y'all think?

I think if you started living on the street you would probably lose the control you have on your d*** addiction pretty quickly.

My plan was to crash at some homies until I get into my rehab

well it has only one month, i feel thats not enought time for things to feel stagnant in that way

When you say "it still hasnt opened up" in reference to rehab, do u mean the facility is closed? Or you have insufficient funds/opportunity hasnt opened up?

Just when you thought you’ve seen the craziest title in L&A someone ups the ante

i don't really know s*** about s*** but i think you'll be better off with your moms than at a friends or on the streets. sorry man but good job on staying sober

crine at you distinguishing between your communist n white friends instead of just saying i got friends who'll let me crash

life is war motherfucker its not about being happy put down the f***in d**** get a f***in job and provide for your loved ones u f***ing coward. im sorry what you are going through is tough and i feel bad for you but your ancestors fought sabertooth tigers and s*** for ur bloodline to make it this far and ur doing blow unemployed thinking about becoming homeless get right mf god damn

what device are you playing tony hawk on

laptop, rethawed/thugpro

i can send a link if you wanna play

This but also

i already been put the d**** down?

i can't get a job until i do my rehab program, which has taken over a month to get up (or I decide to leave home)/i can't apply for a job and then be like "yea imma be gone for a month or two in rehab"

not even trying to make excuses because that's what i did last year, but looking at it pragmatically I'm kinda stuck.

Which Tony hawk game?

i been waiting on a bed for a month/the other rehabs in my area are full (which i feel bad about because they prob deserve it more since fent has hit my county hard while I just do hella blow)

no one asked who gon take care of his mom after he leaves?

Facts

Tbh from what u said what makes most sense is work but stay with mom. U gotta convince her to let u wotk

Nigga

How you getting distracted in your own “I want to be better” thread?

Nigga put down the game

bro asked me a question

hmm....yk I'll give my unfiltered thought about that

she really could take care of herself, she just....let her depression/anxiety hold her back from doing so, but is capable if I wasn't around. (and tbh yea, she does need to be self reliant, when I get better I wanna finally leave this place and finally start my own)

And you shoulda said “but I can’t play right now, I gotta figure this s*** out. I’ll hit you up later”

you should try to find a hobby OP maybe pick up a trade to show your mom your working towards something ( also for yourself)

try to find some free online courses and certs just to learn something new you can use later on to find a job

Ion know man, the addiction thing seems to be sorting itself out because you're too broke for coke. You aren't interested in alcohol. Seems like you're doing alright on that front for now

If your mom don't trust you to work right now, you're feeling stressed out, dealing with demons, sounds like it's a good time to start taking your music stuff seriously. Tell your story bro.

I don't really think you need to become homeless in order to do all this though, that's kinda jumping out there. You'd also probably get easier access to d**** and alcohol, but that can easily spiral into some s*** you don't want it to.

Do what you can with/for your mom, steer clear of your vices, appreciate the roof over your head while you get stuff going for yourself.

fr, sounds like hes in the hardest part of a rough patch

My nigga

We live in 2025 brother

Go to work and FaceTime your mom while you on the way there, when you get there and stay on the phone until you clock in and FaceTime her the whole way home

Come on gang. Let’s start strategizing instead of letting the world defeat us. She don’t trust you cause you won’t even let her. Put down the mic and make rent then pic it up again and talk about this entire experience