I'm more than hesitant to vent and spill my feelings on here after being accused of faking my life oh how I wish I it was all fake and made it unfortunately it's all too real

finally managed to get a hold of a strap and today's the day I'ma finally end this bullshit

I appreciate y'all for everything seriously I wish I I wasnt such a piece a garbage as I sit here alone tears nonstop thank yall this is no ploy for attention as that can do nothing for my life 💗

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Don't do it <3

I see ppl on here living the best lived they worked hard for and I just wonder wher3 did I f*** up so bad at I'm d*** free I try to keep good karma I stay positive but life s***s in my face consistently

No nightmares

But damn the dreams are still so vivid

I'm so f***ing sad inside.

Why me

Two years later its over. Gonna be fun living with regrets

You're Kenough guys

Tired of having to drag myself back up over and over again, but i don't have another alternative smh

I just want to feel normal again. Not having to worry about my anxiety, depression.

Not having to worry/having thoughts when I walk on the beach that I’m dying there and won’t make it, like the last few days here in vacation. I know it’s complete nonsense but it keeps coming in my thoughts and makes me anxious. Wrong breathing, being sad, no joy at all for years.

It’s difficult, having to fight so long. Some good months sometimes but then it comes back.

Also the weight I feel on my shoulders during this vacation to feel happy and trying to enjoy it makes me not able to enjoy it. Don’t want to make the rest sad with me because how I’m acting.

I just wanna go home, but when I’m home I probably wanna go back to here.

Maybe work really is the best for me, so my mind stays occupied during the day and I have something to do. The last few years during summer break I feel trash.

I don’t like going to the office 4 days a week, but I guess a rhythm is better for my mental health.

Since 2 weeks I’ve been going to bed around 3, waking up late and not doing anything during the day.

Take a lot of d**** and now I feel better

s***s a simulation

Going to attempt a 24 hour fast tomorrow

Sometimes I be forgetting it's the Internet I'm.om

after getting really high i followed my cat around the house thinking he was going to show me something cool

I've got nothing that keeps me going

i think i’m meant to be sad forever!

damn man all discipline i had went out the window last week. Time to do better