It was needed, went crazy thinking this girl I was talking to was gang stalking me. Maybe she did who knows

interesting. i dont think ive ever heard positive feedback abt a mental ward stay

depression is woat

I am soooo sad today for some reason. Maybe it's seasonal because the weather is so s*** currently but f*** man

well well well

i get it

its not enough

Therapists, psychiatrists, meditation, mindfulness, every medication in the book

Years and years of this and I’m still on a downward trajectory

It’s like watching my own death in slow motion

Hurting
Deeply
Inside

when you wake up in the middle of the night and think about all the sad s*** that happened to you

I can’t sleep
Been sleeping so bag since I started taking an amino acid complete pill, but it really helps my mood and my ruminating thoughts
But I can’t sleep for s***

ive been getting way too high man

the sickening thing is, attaining happiness strong enough to maintain life is not that complicated of an affair

its really just your own mind doing majority of the manipulation

its really simple, yet difficult

i get it

u wanna die because u think u failed at life

ur almost 30 and you have no meaningful experiences

no goals

no motion

the truth is, life is supposed to suck. its always sucked. but thats the beauty, understanding that its all a trick of the mind, youre only as unhappy as the difference between who you really are and who u think u should be, theres no inherent benefit to living a particular lifestyle other than your own perception of how well your life is going

at the end of the day we all live and die. we should care less about trying to be better than ourselves and more on how we can relate to others. we should look outward, not inward. be goal oriented, instead of pouting about your situation focus on finding goals and achieving them. and we should remember that theres a meaning in our suffering, only if we take the effort to understand it

f*** a mixed episode im feeling like my whole life f***ed up

all i can do is keep making music to distract from everything else

Falling in love with the pain

Dudes is happy to see u fall

They wont be there to pick u up

But when its all over theyll say they was there for u

One of my best friends man

Sometimes i b thinking he jus lacks the emotional bandwidth for empathy

We lost a friend a long time ago and he didnt show no type emotion

Then it happened again, same s***

Im starting to realize he jus a narcissist despite having no interesting aspects to his life

Law of correspondence

The weakest people have no capacity for true love

The strong keep their hearts open no matter what

need advice to not completely lose my s*** every time i wake up

I can't believe how desensitised the world is to s*** man

Went on Twitter this morning. Israel doing a f***ing AMA as per usual s***

Some f***er puts a photo of a dead Palestinian kid in the replies. I understand making people aware of atrocities but seeing s*** like that just f***s my whole day up

I have learned however the only way to block out the intrusive bad thoughts is to be so busy that you don't think of anything and just go blank

or die

i get intrusive thoughts 24/7 and the only way to really distract me is as you said keep busy or surround yourself with (good minded, kind hearted, and wholesome) individuals to keep your focus on something else, besides your thoughts.

hope u r doing well dude 🙏