confused more than anything

idk how im still out here i dont go a single day without breaking down, wanting to kill myself, self harming, crying etc.

why am i even forcing myself out everyday when it could just be done?

Caught up with my friend who was in the (mental) trenches with me, aint s*** changed even though we see each other once a year now.. really needed it after today

who wants to kill themselves together

death save me death save me

????

u down or nah

when u stare down u get shaky knees and you leave

i hope i never end up there again

Ah. That’s why this half of the year’s been so s***ty lol.

Think it finally hit a nigga the industry ya spent ya whole life working towards doesnt even exist no more

That’s gonna f*** u up for a second lmao

I truly hate Mondays.

I fainted 2 days ago, my body just gave up and stopped working.
I was standing up and my legs folded and I smashed my knees into the concrete with my full body weight.

My friends, who I was with, came and tried to help me and carried me inside.
They kept asking if I was alright but I could not answer, I could not make up words or an excuses, just a mild moan.

As they carried me inside I blacked out completely and disappeared into a dream, that I don’t remember now.

Next thing I wake up on my friends floor a couple seconds later and feel like I am out of the spiral that had me faint.
My friends was very concerned and told I had lost all the colors in my face.

I had drunken 3 beers and smoked a little weed right before it happened.

This has happened to me before, but I keep thinking about it.
I completely lost all control and everything felt so intens.
A part of me miss it.

I wish I could remember my dream, I could remember it when I came thru, but then it faded away.

Anyone on strattera? Just got prescribed it today after not being on adhd meds since I was a kid. Worried it might have a blunting effect on my creativity/personality after reading some stories

You get checked for a brain tumor or something? Thats not normal

Tried to go all the way to the top last week but the roof door was locked🙄

Happppy holdidays mentally ill fam

Don’t say stuff like that

thats a sign!

😂😂😂😂😂😂

I’m being fr, people don’t just pass out like that from a few beers and a little weed. Take your health seriously

happening for a lot of people specially those interested in tech.

rock out how you can bro

I do.
I just don’t wanna feed my anxiety, with thoughts about it.

I have written my doctor and told what happened.
But they probably wouldn’t get back to me before the new year.

No hard feelings
Happy Xmas

it must be the Christmas spirit yet again because I the hole in my soul is growing and growing

Sending love to anybody who’s having a hard time this time of year. Having a horrible time with my biological family, hope everybody is having a better time ❤️

Ngl d’angelo passing lowkey tanked this year frfr lol.