Sorry bro but I dont think there's an anxiety-free job in the world

I went off my meds and lost my s***

I need to stop sabotaging myself

New day new mood

Sick of being alone

Feel so fkn EMPTY

f*** this s*** i’m out!

My life has lacked meaning for quite a while, I just don’t want to hurt the people I care about so I’m chillin I guess

Craving nicotine

f***

i'm mad as s*** right now over nothing

My Life is so meaningless

Death soon

p***agraphy / lack of self control has ruined my life

but no longer

as of rn

anxiety weighing me down

I've been off my meds cold turkey for some months now (bipolar II and OCD) and I'm starting to realize that even though I'm still generally functioning on a base level, my decision making is actually way more rash again and I dont wanna sabotage myself but simultaneously dont want to get back on meds either. Binge drinking and this gamestop business has lowkey triggered my dormant gambling addiction (really just my addictive personality as a whole and being bipolar) and I'm honestly getting kinda scared at this point.. We gunna get through this together though

Fam I know how that feels

I tried to hide not taking my meds from those around me cause they'd say I'm getting bad again and I'd prolly end up in a psych ward

Rehab brainwashed me into thinking all medications are d**** and I felt like I would be more clear-headed, less sleepy and just all-better

I've been on every single category of meds throughout my life and I honestly felt like this would be a U-turn of positivity and worth fighting for

I went through cold sweats/insomnia/irritability/loss of appetite/fits of anger/major depression and ALL THAT for what?? just so I can pat myself on the back and say ''you did a good job, you dont need substances or a pharmacy or those doctors''' ??

I humbled myself in the end and said ''I'm sick, I need my medication just like a person with diabetes needs his or someone with migraines needs painkillers'' .....if you really wanna get off these d**** dont test your health....go see a responsible doctor -not a doctor that's close to malpractice- and taper off

WE are NOT our illness or medications....we're human just like anybody else and we need to take care of ourselves even if it means humbling our egos and askin for help

that's just how I see it.

i’m lost man, i withdrew from college a while back because i couldn’t handle the stress and the general online learning s***, i don’t got a job rly

i feel like i failed

i want to get a job or something/get back into college but i’m worried about catching covid on the job thing and idk how to re-enter college or even if i’m ready yet