nothing more cozy than a hot cup of coffee and chill music at winter :)

feel like I could have saved my friend from dying I feel so much regret and guilt. Can't wait till this hectic ass month is over so I can try to get some therapy. Never felt so depressed in my life.

I hate my life

My ego is hurt out of all things

Im tired of thinking I just need to shut off my brain... forever.

I honestly thought things would be better

Is it ever gonna change?
Am I gonna feel this way 4ever?

today is 3 years since my friend was killed after working in another state for 6 weeks.

I will never have a more wild time working and living then i did those 6 weeks. S*** was like a real life movie for real. we came home that morning at like 5am and he got shot breaking up a fight on a basketball court.

dude had an infant son and everything. i can only think and smile off all the funny ass stories me him and the other 2 dudes had.

stay safe everyone!
<3

So many things happening at once. I feel like I’ve grown numb to tragedy over the past couple of years. I really need to start therapy.

Bro
My life is a f***ing mess

I’m really not okay.

I have no willpower , I wish I could just be left to my own devices

There’s something definitely wrong with me and but I don’t know what

I'm NOT good!

i can't get up

y'all probably heard this a million times but gym (2 weeks in) + no fap (10 days in) is doing wonders for me
lets see where this takes me

cut down on the drinking and late night eating as well

I don't want to go back to my old ways

i need to give more.

i'm not giving enough.

reserving too much energy for myself when its not necessary