I'm f***ing worthless, I'll never be s***

I have everything that would make normal ppl happy but to me these things are just a burden that add to the ''why are you so f***ing miserable'' question

f*** everything and everyone

I cant tolerate people and relationships simply cause I'm a scared p****

I cant even stand my own guts

the worst thing I ever saw was my reflection

my delusions and hallucinations are at their peak right now

I cant even tell what's real anymore

my body feels like it's not mine...like its plastic or some s***

I dont even eat. I'm living on cigarettes, coffee, meds and water

Wishing the best for everyone itt

I hope you came out of this okay

I dont feel worthy of being sad because I know 1. I got it better then a lot of people
And 2 I just create it myself im just a lazy recluse watching time pass me by

The mood swings so confusing

developing the capacity for self compassion. i will not feel guilty for or internalize my shortcomings. my mistakes do not and will not define me, i am willing to take the necessary steps to rectify and move past blunders because i trust in my ability to operate from my higher self in hopes that i will reach such a state. i know i deserve love and i will also give it

everything feels so disingenuous..

Thanks for being here fam

I didnt kms so I'm okay

My chest is sinking

Try to eat friend

Thanks !

I did and took my meds afterwards

my only problem is the dry mouth from the meds but I'll make sure to properly hydrate myself

again, thank you so much, I'm grateful to God for people like you.

No problem you don't gotta thank me but I'm glad you ate and hope you are feeling better
What meds are you on? I was prescribed some like a year ago but stopped taking them because it gave me horrible heartburn. Plus I'm pretty sure my diagnosis was wrong and antidepressants wouldn't do s*** for me

I'm a diagnosed schizophrenic. I live in europe so I dont know if the med brands I take will ring any bell but I'm on antipsychotics, an antidepressant, anti-epileptics, a mood stabilizer and benzodiazepines

I feel you on the heartburn part. I used to abuse pills and take more than 40-70 daily and after getting my stomach pumped a few times I developed an ulcer which is one of the reasons I avoid eating cause I wake up in the middle of the night screaming from the pain

note for heartburn relief: sleep on your left side with an extra pillow and take deep breaths

Showing up is key to overcoming daily problems

i need to gain self confidence so badly

Very true

Sometimes I don't realize I'm in a ditch.
Sometimes I don't realize I'm surrounding myself around the wrong ppl

You're not worthless. Declutter. Take your time, each seed blossoms at it's own pace.