Somebody please put some money on my head

F*** this

helping yourself or using the internet to help yourself is essential but in some aspects i feel like i will be impacted deeper if i do work with another person (a professional)

want to sleep forever

the older u get the more u regret

hidden emotions

the biggest jigsaw puzzle b the world

i felt that

Going to see a doctor for stress and bad p*** habit. It got worse again and I'm back to watching s*** I know I don't like irl.

naming emotions & sensations in order to process how i feel/felt about past events is frustrating at times like, hitting that mental stalemate is really frustrating but ik i have to be patient and have faith in myself bc i'm worth it

i'll never be a functional adult

Months ago I went on only the second date I've ever been on, with a girl I met on tinder. I thought it went really well and I was happy, but ig she wasn't interested in me and we never ended up meeting again.

A normal person would have just moved on but I'm so inexperienced that I would occasionally still think about her and imagine a better outcome.

She and some guy at my university just started following one another on instagram, which again I shouldn't even know about but I kept looking at her instagram from time to time. Idk how they could know each other besides dating apps which has just made me feel horrible and sick, that she might now be with this guy because he's tall and edgy and s*** and I just wasn't attractive enough. I've had a ton of stress the past few months which has made my reaction worse, humiliated. I think this would be a giant overreaction from a normal person but I can't stop thinking about it

shes just another girl

I was so young when I behaved 25
yet now I find I've grown into a tall child

The little s*** is getting to me like it never has before even stuff like people offering help makes me mentally just say f*** off

I'm bad energy rn and I hate it, I'm sure people around me can feel it too so I don't wanna be a burden

everyone that is in here deserves love and affection if we're keeping it a buck

Scheduled 1st sessions with 3 different docs lol. Let's see who I like

How do you guys handle stress? I've heard so many times of healthy alternatives to stress relieving and s*** doesn't click for me or doesn't come natural to me to do them.

Exercise until near-exhaustion it will get me bodied more than anything the struggle is grasping that motivation to do so.

starting new work on tuesday, but still finding it difficult to get a routine going

that good ol antidepressant wanting to cry but u literally-physiologically are not able to feeling ​🙃

it’s never easy to see someone you wanted with someone else, and it’s easy to hold on to that feeling, but it should fade if you continue to date. the more you date, the less it should sting when/if it doesn’t work out. i know it’s hard to date again after feeling so embarrassed, but i think it’s for the best.

listening to the minecraft ost just to feel something