bruh i got fired like 3 days into the job

some kid try to hoe me out and i shut that s*** down real quick he got shook and left and the next day he said he felt threatened by me and that was that

damn that sucks. sorry to hear. Was that that job in the kitchen?

channel this energy into the music bro you have so many thoughts and you feel a lot go ahead and snap bro and let it all out

yeah thats what i do. havent done it since covid popped off. its been very diy since. not sure if i still want to do kitchen work but not really good at anything else its gotten extra stressful and i feel like its a skill but we dont get rewarded for being skilled workers hence always working with dumbasses

the skills ive acquired will carry over to other jobs but being formal or carrying myself professionally will be hard

I couldn;t work in the kitchen, that is too stressful for me to be in that environment. tough job being in the kitchen. I rememeber doing hospitality in year 11 and 12 and I had to do work experience at a hospital and restraurant ..lol

But what do I know, I'm stuyding to become a teacher

i like that s*** the crazier the better im comfortable under pressure. theres always a way to dig yourself out of whatever hole they throw you in. especially if you have a good crew you just have to figure it out. i enjoy the problem solving and you either can or you cant you aint bullshitting no one. i just wish good cooks were paid better. and thats dope man someone has to educate the youth i definitely couldnt do it i imagine it requires a lot of patience but it must be incredibly rewarding.

I've been trying but I'm super burnt out most of the time

That’s understandable bro sometimes it be like that it’s hard to muster up the strength to do anything when your feeling real down. But know there’s people out there who feel just like you man and you have a voice and something to offer to the world and others. Baby steps bro lil by lil.

If you ever have a therapist recommend group therapy don't do it.

cried for the first time in a while
felt p good ngl

why

I had a personally bad experience so that's part of it but I just don't imagine it would be any more useful than seeing the person one on one.

My group therapy sessions were always very quiet and awkward and I learned nothing and didn't really get much out of it. Towards the end I talked about something which ended up in this weird guy basically attacking me and calling me a horrible person and embarrassed me in front of everyone. Pretty much everyone else I talked to said his reaction was insane and unreasonable but still, I don't want to deal with that.

i'ma just stop eating fr

I’m lonely every day 😕

Being completely off all prescription meds for 4+ months now, i can't really say or know if I'm even better off. I mean, there were a bunch of crappy side effects, but at least swallowing a pill gave me the hope of some relief. Now i picked back up drinking, well, even though i was drinking beforehand. Idk, its like as Chief Keef said, "I Hate Being Sober".

19

Abilify is f***ing trash

I've been spending a bunch of money on my therapist not covered in my insurance bc I'm scared to try to talk to someone else. And I don't have a job

I hate my brain

Leave me alone