Gonna give myself one more year and if s*** doesnt change by then well i give up

At the end of the day nothing is your fault because you only have one run through life

I’m an introvert leading an extroverts life and its beginning to take a serious toll on my mental

once again i cannot f***ing wait to be sitting in a f***ing therapists chair i can’t wait

I’m depressed too f*** my woman

it's been a good, long decade of me putting this off and wimping out last minute, but this month i'm ending it fr.

now i'm just organizing everything and doing what little i can to minimize the pain and trauma i'll inevitably leave behind.

i wanna finish some drawings, paintings, video edits and short stories before i kick the chair though. leave a little part of me behind you know.

i wish there was a way for me to donate the years i have left to someone who actually wants them.

i must seem like the most ungrateful, spiteful, privileged cretin to all those people who are terminally ill or bed ridden. they would probably kill to have my health and youth, yet here i am just throwing it away.

I be amazed at how egregious efficient I've become in being my own best friend

then I have days like today.

My demons got a hold of me I don’t have control of my thoughts anymore

ive dug myself a hole i have no way out of im such a coward

im going to be like this for the rest of my life arent i

Mind posting a drawing on here? <3.
Did you do anything today?

suicidal

I know that feeling. I've been thinking about it too, had some plans laid out such as getting my long service leave for work, which is 10 weeks pay. Was planning on giving that to my mum and my car..

I've been dealing with my s*** for years l like you Its been around 10 years and I think it's been way too long with no doing anything to help myself, I don't knowing how I'm gonna get out of this. I have a job and studying, but I'm just alone l.. So alone.

I've been thinking if 8 fail this university unit again, I have to wait an entire year to redo it. If that happens.. I think I'm done. Absolutely no motivation to do well...

Well me and her finally ended in horrible terms. I gave it my all I honestly did but at the end of the day her true colors were shown. She only cared about herself and threw me away.

I deserve more than “ I’m not obligated to talk to you” “oh sorry sometimes I forgot to reply I’m busy or I forget” “we can still be friends”

You give someone the world and they have the nerve to be ungrateful and shatter it to save themselves.

It hurts a lot but I’ll keep trying this is last thing I needed

For those of you that have found solace in ur life how were you able to do so?

Jm gonna pass put

going thru the same s*** rn brother

What gets me is that it wasn't that long ago I was a child. I had such a positive outlook and was overall happy. I never expected how difficult it would be, and how scared and miserable I would feel

Anyone here ever made a video diary before? I hate writing, and i'm not usually one to talk to myself but I just tried it out, it was just 6 minutes of me talking to myself. It was therapeutic, it forced my thoughts to flow. Also I got out questions that i knew I needed to address that i haven't told anyone before. Sure i've had thoughts of it in my head but this felt much different.

Hey bro do you need to discuss this with someone? You can DM if you want (sorry if i asked this before lol i like to reach out to aussies)

I did this 2 years ago and I watched it back a few months ago and holy s*** I was in a dark place

My friend described it as a time portal when you look back

Is there really any real reason to get off Zoloft? I’ve been on it pretty much my whole life but I feel like I don’t need it anymore but I’m afraid of how I’ll react