lies

i know im just temporarily going through it, and the worst is behind me

but i cant help but feel empty as f***, like i hurt the people around me by not thinking. the issue is i overthink, yet still manage to hurt them

i dont like myself, i ruin everything, and above all, despite having some of the best friends i could ever possibly ask for, i feel lonely and uncomfortable in my own skin

i have threads earlier this year where i talk about how bad i feel about life in general. it's as true now as it was then, but now i have control and a lively social life, i still feel alone

the catalyst is a relationship i just had to end, i failed to engage in a way she liked and she said she could never forgive me. i meant no harm whatsoever but she took zero effort to separate intention from act, and refused to talk.

i just feel awful and alwys second guess myself, earl sweatshirt's solace really hitting lately

f*** this s***

I've been calling my neurologist assistant every day for an earlier appointment ain't notihng opening up I am dying

I hate when people ask how im doing, and I always lie and say.. im good. I hate lying about that. I want to mean it for once..

Haven’t felt so alone in forever.

When I’m depressed, at least I had a small group to text or hangout with every now and then

I’ve literally pushed all my close friends away

I don’t have anyone to text or talk to

Legit at the worst point in my life…

Currently me

Have to get up for work in 3 hours

I find myself in the place where I’m last seen 😞😞

Would anyone here recommend betterhelp?

You probably hear this a lot when venting but keep ya head up we in struggling together and we can make it through the storm together. I don’t have much else to say cause I am not in the best position to give advice but I promise if you try your best to keep a positive mentality it can get better. That’s atleast what they tell me

Appreciate you bro. Yeah I feel you. And trust me, I’m the king of tryna stay positive lol. That’s what’s kept me going. Kinda faking positivity and hoping you make it out

the discord is open if you ever wanna chop it up bro

discord.gg/Q5Jn5YhU

hate not having money for weed

smh

i ruined my life

I need a dentist for the teeth I broke while in withdrawals and I also need a good look at my hands from a physician plus I have to talk to my psychiatrist about said WDs but my anxiety is crippling

just the thought of getting weird looks cause I look like I got jumped scares the s*** out of me

In my neighborhood I cant help it cause ppl are kind and they get me but going to a hospital with f***ed up hands and broken teeth screams ''im not okay'' and thats the last thing i want

If I learned something this year it's to never judge a book by its cover

the ''cover'' is not always just appearance tho

everything I ever laughed at or dismissed as weird I ended up doing/being

and you know im happy it happened now and not when I'm 60 yrs old hitting the bottle....nothing wrong with that either btw

justice is a dish best served cold.....true af.....some call it karma, others call it God's will...for me it's the second one but along with action and reaction thrown into it,

from now on whenever I reach a conclusion about something I'll add a mandatory question mark

according to einstein space and time are relative depending on the momentum and right now I'm sitting still inside a storm....

What’s going on

God can this phase of fear and paranoia just end already

ay u good man?

It’s almost something new every week I get so afraid of
S*** got out of hand it sent me to the ER when I was perfectly fine

I can’t even beat my d*** without fear