Might just throw myself in the loony bin if I don’t get better by 2022

I sincerely wanna get drunk as f*** and walk into traffic

Exploding once a month has turned into an almost daily thing

I dont wanna f***ing do this anymore

I make everyone hate me because I f***ing unload all my s*** onto them because i can't f***ing handle it myself and I'm just a ficking nuisance I can't

I’m going to make it through and so will everyone reading this

bres im lonely as f*** losing more and more friends as i get older lol

Anyone have any experience with eating disorders/bad eating habits?

My cousin is super skinny and works long hours and im getting very worried for him

He eats like one big meal a day and coasts and that aint right. He has a lot going on, so i want to put together a program for him that he can introduce slowly to his schedule

Any suggestions on meal prep? Vitamins/supplements? Regiments?

I feel so much better now
It seems the first half of the day is the worst for me

I might potentially get into s*** with the IRS tomorrow, medical bills will f*** me over, but I’m prepared
Money problems can be fixed
But once your life gone you gone
I’m ready for whatever financial problems I’m gonna be facing

Every time I feel like I'm close to being content with my life, something happens to completely f*** everything over.

My girlfriend of 6 years told me she wants to see other people. the thought of her with someone else makes me physically ill. She's always been my best friend and now I feel like I have no one. I've just been in absolute agony the past couple days to the point where I want to quit my job and just f***ing wither away in my bed.

Cant believe how big 24 hours no smoking feels…sleep tonight going to be tougher than tough though

Start therapy again tomorrow.

Now sure how emotional I’ll be.

Well.. I've bought rope. Just not sure where I would do it though. This lonliness is a lot to handle.. been way too many years dealing with this.

Don't do that, go talk to someone right now just bawl your eyes out to them if you have to it's scary asf I know but it will make you feel better and they will help you I promise that is a much better option please dont leave us man

the first couple of days are hell on earth - insomnia, cold sweats, unrelenting boredom etc.. try to keep as active as you can good luck

Fr fr. Many times it’s so hard to get from 24 to 48 and 48 to 96 because of what you listed

Thanks, crying my eyes out is usually a daily routine.. My sister and mum know about my issues. But what they tell me isn't doing much honestly..

I think this wake-up call I been having recently is a good thing cause
I’m no longer suicidal
I’m scared to do any substance that isn’t THC
It only put me in financial problems which I can work out
My dads wake-up call was a lot worse he had to get heart surgery after almost dying

Being on keppra has really been f***ing with my headspace

Today during a work out there felt like so much anger pent up on me that came out of nowhere & I even started tearing up

Think I’m hitting one of those monthly “let it out “ weeks