need to get sober and get off the internet for a little

idk if ive actuallyu gained any control over my emotions i might just feel them all at once

i dont nkow if this is true

i just realized ill be fine

10 years and nothing has changed

that’s amazing. sounds like you have an awesome therapist for them to make themselves available to you like that

one of my biggest problems with the majority of therapists is how they swear you’re such a big priority to them yet they ignore you for 6 days and 23 hours out of the week

you struck gold. I’m happy for you 💯

After an immensely rough year
Toughest till date,lost near everything i had, like the only logical way for me this year was bout to end was with me dying some way or another

Got into therapy

Got diagnosed with ADHD mix of both types
Explains my adhd shutdown/depression episodes

Therapist prescribed me meds

And goddamn im feeling like the old me again
I feel so happy and freed
My mind is f***ing empty too, which is amazing like wow no more 3/4 voices yelling 1000 thoughts and memories constantly distracting me
Just one voice and point to focus

Doesn't disappear completely obviously but it helps with the symptoms

Excited for the future

If there's one thing i had wished i never had it was this absurdly high amount of anxiety and stress
Been like this since i was like 14 due to adhd

Anxiety is just the f***ing worst, it literally drives my mind to suicide
U can literally do nothing, like nothing
Basically scared of anything that i do
And even more so scared of everything and everyone u have no control over

Going outside was the biggest mental challenge, i could feel my body and mind twist and turn soon as i walked down the staircase to the outside door and heard the streets and saw the lights
I felt like a giant cockroach
I hated being in public
I hated being seen
The thought of someone seeing me would literally kill me
I couldn't stand being in a crowded environment
The noises
Every insecure was on red hot alert

Like im an artist, i love being out there in the public
I love being seen, i donr mind attention
But this was killing me

I literally quite lifing
Id just look for a spot in public to be alone and sit with ma 1000 depressive thoughts and let em consume me

Couldn't even eat or drink without me puking it out due to stress and anxiety

devastated

it's not over till it's over

Toughest months of my life ahead of me. Not very confident.

my thoughts get so dark to the point i dont even know who this person called me is anymore

In what sense?

Back stuck again. I'm sure I'll be back but zzz

I'm feeling better, things are getting more calm and becoming more clear.

Been sober, all is well for the moment

feel like depressed spongebob

Just wanna run away and freeze to death or something

I been doing great for the past 2 ~ 3 months now just got some info that f***ed me up and I'm back down. So tired of this s***ty ass cycle.

Tbh, I rarely message my therapist out of our Monday session.

But each Wed she sends me a message of the week and sometimes a work sheet.

Last week she knew Thanksgiving was gonna be rough, but she asked how I was doing. I didn't respond but it's nice to know she cares

I believe there are good therapist just takes a min to get it right

Life has it's ups and downs, which sometimes we can control

Remember: it's okay and slow get back in your good grove ❤️

One of the absolute worse things my poor mental health robbed me of was time and enthusiasm to pursue and nurture my passions.

I wasn’t one of those people who could lose themselves in it. I had nothing. Things are different now, but precious formative years were wasted on the wrong things.