don’t care about my body anymore, feel like i’m just wasting away

been feeling like complete ass for months, the worst ive ever felt

But last night I took New Mood 2 hours later Melatonin
And I slept amazing
Naturally woke up at 7:30 am Drank water ate a banana
At 8am I went for a jog/walk x Push ups
Helped with some chores
took alpha brain, hopped on linkedin learning to learn how to mix & learn music theory with some coffee
now im just listening to beautiful music surfing the net in the living room ( avoiding isolation in my room)

The only way im f***ing up is I haven't ate breakfast and its 12:20
edit: just ate breakfast

but man I feel good
this feeling was so distant just yesterday

I usually wake up at 10:30, get up at 11, and beat myself up about it and do nothing all day

I’m conflicted as f***

Not sure why I never pay attention to that

F***

i cant tell anymore

im just numb

can't focus on anything
been feeling like trash these few past weeks

Is this a no fap thread?

miss the way things used to be man

feel so hopeless and alone now

Don’t remember being this anxious

Might srsly end it in the next 2 hours it’s too much

Yo breathe it out

No we’re all coming together in here

Does your anxiety have physical symptoms?

C*******together ?

medication-induced celibacy, we gotta give each other a hand

Felt this too much

Please

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Love y’all ❤️

I hate the feeling that I've gone back on all the progress I've made over the last few years, I don't think I can even be around people like I used to anymore

Im on disability for aspergers and everyday is the same i hate it but its all i know

I've almost lost my life multiple times and yet I still find myself unintentionally taking it for granted and I hate how hard it is for me to just maintain focus and be productive. I feel like I self sabotage out of nowhere and it kills any type of progress I've had. I've lost jobs, friends, opportunities because of my own actions and even with recognizing that, I still can't do right by any of it. I should probably start seeking therapy again or go back on my medication but I feel like it just makes me numb and dependent, I feel so lost. What am I supposed to do when everyone keeps telling me to "seek help" but I'm too scared to