It's a new year and i'm still the same worthless loser

I've been doing that 24/7 for years and years

being on here makes me sad n clouds my mind

yeah but I dont have the self-consuming energy to do it forever

Take some time off bro I love your threads but your wellbeing more important

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wasn’t even aware taking medication was something to be ashamed about

It isn’t but there are still families out there that don’t allow it. It’s pretty stupid, but as long as you have been taking it, it just shows you care about your well being.

The people that rarely shame others for it are just usually all in all bad people no matter what.

every day

Been so busy lately that I just realize I can end it now that I have the money to buy a gun

One day where the calendar switches from 2020-2021 doesn’t mean anything to me. Time doesn’t matter

If there’s one thing I’ve grown to realize it’s that time doesn’t matter. Regardless of how you interpret it, it moves with or without you.

I’m the same me, no New Years resolutions none of that. Just keep building on what I started in July. Viewing this as a surgery recovery, always keep striving for the future and don’t take the present for granted because the present is where I’m the least happy.

Here is my december tale:
My friend, me and her are f***ing, went home for xmas super early because she was afraid our country would be locked down because of covid.
All of the sudden I was alone in the city for 10 days with no one to talk to, just be in my apartment. 2 days before I began smoking weed again and all of the sudden I was back in the deep black hole of mental illness. Every morning when I woke I was afraid of the day and tried to smoke everything away.
When she came back it felt so good have s***again, but I soon realized that I was using s***just like I was using weed, to get away from my problems.

I feel really f***ed and I am sad that this is the way my new year is starting. I don't know how to get back on feet. Everything that feels good becomes an addiction. I am having a hard time eating and getting out of bed, I wish I was young so I could get help but it's to late

Imagine having someone who cares about u. I will never ever experience anything like that

yeah sometimes dude. i won't lie it's part of the process of recovery we ain't going to get better overnight we're going to have setbacks and revert back to previous behaviours and habits.

it's importance to recognise when you're doing it and be conscious that it's just your thoughts at this present moment and it's just your opinion and those don't necessarily mean that you actually hate yourself.

we're complex beings it's difficult, we have to try our best to be positive because like kanye said we have to be our biggest fans. If you're a fan of kanye west you're a fan of yourself.

too much ktt ain't good for the brain man i love this site and community with all my heart, but breaks are necessary.

happy new year king hope you're doing well i wish you love and good health for 2021 'Til Forever. ❤

you got discord bro i want to respond to your messages but ktt DMs be faulty as hell on my phone and it's difficult to see the messages.

you're a king to us

happy new year brother. I'm just glad we made it to this year considering everything

Real