i feel like my thoughts come and go sometimes like even some days i tend to over think about stuff in general also i tend to find that those days be on Sunday nights to, also just found out yesterday i was detected with the virus so there is another way to f*** you up mentally this pandemic has kinda mentally f***ed me up to , keep staying strong guys will get over this

planning on how to get away from everything

all I wanna do is make art trade stonks and live somewhere by myself

do what makes you happy man

I wanna quit my job so bad.
It's gotten to the point where I'm having anxiety attacks in my office bathroom cause I can't handle this s*** anymore.
But my wife is pregnant and I'm not sure I'll be able to get a job that pays this well in the current economy.
I'm just so f***ing drained, I'm like a walking zombie...

What an awful predicament. I will pray that things improve for you and your family. What do you do if you don’t mind my asking?

I'm a media planner in one of the biggest advertising agencies in the region.
Basically, a lot of bullshit, numbers, excel sheets, mind-numbing stuff.
I've always wanted to do something creative and I've always been good at writing so naturally gravitated towards advertising after getting my master's degree in Media Studies.
But a couple of years ago I got offered this job and even though it's completely opposite to what I wanted to do in life (numbers and statistics and budgets and sheets vs. creative writing and creating content), I accepted cause it's a great agency and it payed well.
Now I feel stuck at a job I hate doing, but it pays well and it's a solid, stable company that's hard to come by in these corona times.
I know it's 1st world problems and I should be grateful to even have a good job, but I just feel like my soul is being drained sitting at the laptop everyday doing calculations and plans and s*** I don't care about at all, while my life is passing me by...
I'm 28 and by the time I'm 30, I really want to be doing what I love and live off of it, but it seems so unreachable now

Does it suck up a lot of your time? I think you can do it man! I see a lot of you in myself based off that and if I can think I can do it then I invariably think you can too.

I studied film and media at school and minored in marketing. Corona hit RIGHT as I graduated and it took me months to find a job and it was in marketing. Still is. I appreciate that to a certain extent I’m writing (copy )and creating (graphics ).

It just feels like unfulfilling bs tbh and I just want to make money off my music and writing. S*** just feels so hard most of the time smh. We can do it tho. I’d love to send support by reading your s***, man

This is my last year

godspeed

F*** this

I want out so bad man nobody should feel like this

I crave a beer everyday

at least I don't drink a lot in one day, a beer or two and thats it

Trapped in psyche

I dont remember what it feels like

i dont like a single thing about myself lol

(lotta pain in that lol)

Could be worse

I f***ing hate myself

Me and my ex started talking again. And now i am obsessing over her, constantly checking IG to see if she's dm'd me. Smh how do i stop doing this, it's consuming my thoughts

F*** it just dawned on me that i need serious psychological help

Why does my brain go haywire at night??

any minor inconvenience and i be ready to die

My tolerance for people saying they're gonna do things and then they just do something else has hit an all time low. S*** doesn't even matter anyway it's just social stuff where everyone's having fun but it's like I can't roll with the punches anymore. I keep my mouth shut but why do I even get annoyed? If I was someone else I'd seriously roll my eyes at anyone who thought like that

so much to do so little time