ok the 7oh is def working pretty good rn.

its still mild af compared to codeine but right now 25-30mg (according to the packet which is probably make bleive)
is pretty good.

50mg probably the sweet spot which is a lot and very expensive

no nothing you can do.

I try to remind myself I will be nostalgic for this time to and to make new memories. and also let go of the past.

something i do i gotta stop is I wait for the “perfect time” to do something like play a game or watch a movie and then ti never comes and i end up not doing it. and ruining present time by ruminating over the past and by fixating on my ocd.

I was on imuran I think it's called

oh wow i googled it, that seems like some serious stuff too.

used in kidney transplants to prevent rejection, is a group 1 human carcinogen
nasty damn

how did you find it? did it help or make you feel weird or anything?
youre not on any immunosuppressants anymore? dont have to share any of this if u dont want to

I mean around that time I felt really bad from being sick or out of it from pain medication so the reaction I had to other medication is hard to judge really

I also just did a ton of sleeping

And I don't take anything anymore

wonderful damn

just some therapy sue time

Once it was in remission they decided that the less long I had to take some of those d**** the better so I stopped taking anything

you might be goin thru a lil hoe phaaaaase

awesome
yeah they sound like they could have some nasty side effects if you have to take them for a long time so thats a good call

Imuran was actually the less serious one

Remicade could only be given through visiting a clinic and getting it dripped into you through an IV and is just super dangerous because it shuts down your immune system basically

im pretty sure remicade is what my cousin is on. or one of things he gave him at certain points

s*** is so dangerous

Yeah they pump you full of all types of d**** when you have those issues I had a ton of pills I was taking every morning at one point

ya! insane man
just becasue your body decides to attack itself. just total foolishness from the body’s pov

like how stupid are you youre attacking your own ass like what

My least favorite part were some of the horrible protein shakes I was forced to drink due to being anemic though

They were like chocolate but they tasted like chocolate mixed with pure iron/blood

bumblebee stings you?
time to kill you, for no reason. like what is that. immune systems retarded

It's too active it's going too hard basically u have a super immune system

oh man have you ever drank that drink before a colonoscopy thats like a HUGE bottle of stuff.
my ex had to and i tried it adn that s*** tasted so nasty.

when i was iron deficient as a kid they just gave me pills for a few months. but thats a very differnt situation than yours

ya we both have super immune systems.

just loads of friendly fire from the body’s pov. immune systems too trigger happy

Oh my God I have legitimate PTSD from having to mix this stuff with Gatorade (I couldn't stomach it straight)

I can't even look at orange Gatorade anymore

It's so horrible and there's like a thickness to it

hahahah you know the stuff

mixing it is brutal because thats just so much more liquid.

i know and the taste is indescribable. its like chemicals and dyes is what it tastes like. you body knows like im not suppose to put this in me

like getting down even a glass is barely do able. but the f***ing jug throughout a whole day man idk how thats even possible