all alooooooooooonggg all aloooong

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guess im meant to be alone

I already feel like my life is over...

my name unloved

I feel like I am not going to make it though the night

F***ing don’t want to live anymore

dreamed about her

Still suicidal but I have no way out so idk I'm just here I guess

I’m having an emotional breakdown and realizing what I’m doing to myself

I don’t want to put that on anyone which is why I’m afraid to find a partner cause they are just gonna have to discover my mess and be worried and I don’t want that

im in pain

im so tired of feeling like this lol

I think I’m going to start taking lexapro and burpirone again. I tried to go without it but my anxiety has slowly gotten worse at work. It peaked yesterday when I couldn’t stop my hands from shaking while starting an iv, even tho I’ve been comfortable doing them before.

This breakup has me tripping. It’s been like half a year and this relationship legit changed me. Idek who I am anymore. Damn. I don’t use d**** or drink when stressed. I sleep. I can sleep a whole day rn since like July/August. Really lucky my job is flexible but I need to snap out of it

stay strong my g ❤

"hmu you can talk to me"
sure, ignore me after 5 messages, bet .

only chick that talks to me regularly sucks at support
and the other is cool but I'm so tired to be replying like that atm .

boutta drink a beer or two off 15mg valium
maybe I won't wake up

Zoloft is WOAT

I deadass like cant c***anymore dog its so f***ing annoying I can be going hard for an hour and still nothing f*** this s***

I think I’m done

I might’ve f***ed up

Hopefully I’m good

I gotta stop getting drunk. Since I been able to buy legally I been getting loaded every night for almost two weeks straight. Sometimes in the AM too