Drinking used to be the only thing that helped now it's just a catalyst for suicidal thoughts

F*** I hate ppl sometimes

The ppl I like the most get treated like s***

Can't wait for society to backfire

empty

How do u tell your mom There's nothing more in the world u want more than death

That's some s*** I could only tell a therapist

Her texts read like a music video

I feel like I'm falling and I can't stop

Mood:

I knew I was f***ed when I did Molly at 19 and all I felt was anger and irritation

I don't think dopamine exists in me

I don't understand how confidence works
Some days I don't even feel confident enough to pick up the phone and text someone or leave the house, other days I'm doing graded presentations in front of 50 people without any issues. I feel like tomorrow is going to be the former

too soon for summer vibes

I really feel this, damn

Give yourself another chance

what's up?

Rn i got nothing to do i don’t wanna put my phone down and sleep and be alone with my thoughts though. I just want it to be tomorrow

Thxs for checking in, I've been str8 since last night went to see my fam slowly things are coming back to normal. I gotta stop drinking rly I think that's what f***ed me up. Also it's been a busy year so I think I was rly burnt out

How r u doing breh

gonna lose it

so tired of feeling alone, the one time i try and inv someone into my world she don’t even entertain the mere notion

this s*** is crazy

Does anyone experience a slingshot effect with heightened emotions?

Specifically whenever i do/experience something really enjoyable it's usually later that day I have a complete change of mood with everything negative accumulating at once. I haven't cried from it but I feel like I should, some tears definitely rolled down my cheeks though.

I'm rational and experienced enough to know it's temporary and I'll get over it but it's honestly a problem.

been having pretty bad anxiety since i found out my ex was talking to another guy behind my back. it's really f***ed me up. it's a tough night rn, pray for your boy

just put on some cudi and not even an hour later im feeling a little more at peace.

this mood swing s*** makes me feel like a teenager who can't manage and he's the artist I relied on the most all those years back.

Not enjoying therapy this time around

Cousin in hospital got me having major anxiety attacks. I've just been on edge lately. Can't function like a human without some type of consistent vice. You think you're improving but realize you'll always be that same scared confused child at times