These past two months have been hard. I'm experiencing depression for the first time in years, and I've had bouts of ideation. Trying to cope with what's going on and overcome it.

I encourage all of you to utilized this time to reinvent yourselves if you’re not happy. This pandemic is going to break a lot of people, but make a lot of people as well. No matter what anybody says our world will not be the same. Take advantage of that.

By no means am I saying changing things will cure depression, but the balance of power will shift and those that subscribe to the old way of doing things will crumble.

chill

we need our soldiers here

Oh my god that’s terrible! I’m so sorry friend

I got the vodka ready to die

I need to see my therapist but it’s impossible right now,
I’m sure many people feel the same

They might offer video counseling. I've done that with mine, and it worked well.

Need to restart therapy, I stopped all my meds I honestly don’t see any point to this

crippling loneliness hours in full effect

I guess so, I’m used to the office setting
I wont be able to fully open up in a video call the same way unfortunately

I’ve hit my limit with this job. Can’t take this s*** anymore

lol

yeah I relapsed hard this past week been a blur

Imma stop with the benzos for now and put all my effort into learning this guitar. Cant learn it if im half dead

I dont need people they're too unreliable

why have people hated me my whole life

imma die soon

I guess we'll never know

I need to calm down

I seriously can't live sober it's not possible

i just wanna die honestly

everything f***ing sucks can't enjoy s*** I used to anymore