dont be sorry.

just make sure you fight these urges and dont end up like me

s*** gave me ulcer and f***ed my stomach up

How y'all coping with depression during this pandemic thing

I do my best to distract myself with music, movies and books

when I go to sleep and my thoughts come running in is when s*** gets tough. I also got night terrors and cold sweat. I almost loathe sleep.

other than that I do my best to keep myself busy....I cant stand silence

I try reading books , and watching shows. It works so far

Nothing worse than being depressed and having a s***ty day on top of it. Like everyday s***ty in my head already. Why the world gotta make s*** worse?

Im ugly and small

Life’s empty

I'm scared the next doctors appointment I have they're gonna put me in a psych ward.

what you guys do when you cant sleep if you watch tv the lights f*** u up so you cant sleep after, do you guys just lie in bed close your eyes and sleep?

sit on my bed with my eyes closed for like 15 mins

ya i usually just stay in bed close my eyes until i fall alseep but i move around alot lol if one thing bothers me i switch over to the other side

what I meant was to just basically meditate

i just breath slowly and close my eyes
but let me ask does it take long to fall a sleep sometimes it takes me an hour i have been told that once you finish watching tv or the computer it can take up to like 45/hour

I struggle everyday bro until I start meditating. Yesterday I took melatonin and fell asleep fast and had vivid dreams which I find cool. So maybe look into that.

For the past 4 nights every time I'm about to fall asleep I get this weird sense of guilt. Like I didn't put out enough effort that day, or maybe I did put the effort in but it simply wasn't good enough and I should have done better. It's as if my conscience is telling me I don't deserve to rest. I end up reading or doing something you'd consider "productive" and only end up getting a few hours of sleep. I'm not sad or depressed - I actually feel fine, but I also feel inadequate.

funny thing is that i get vivid dreams to sometimes w.e even when i stopped taking zinc pills but i will stick with what i know works for me to sleep

guilt i havent done enough in this life and will never reach my potential. lonelyyy im so lonelyyy i have nobodoyyy to call my ownn!! woowoeh

Was a decent day. The intervals of time between moments of mindfulness seem to be shrinking again. The cycle continues.

I love you all.

One of the most painful & annoying traits of mine, is randomly seeing someone and feeling an overwhelming amount of sadness for them. For absolutely no reason. Like someone as...irrelevant, as a random background character in a tv show.

Does anyone know anything about this? The closest thing I can find is hyper empathy but I don't think that's it, I feel like I would need at least some kind of tipoff that they were suffering. Maybe it is, and I need to focus on the feeling more instead of pushing it away. That's one thing I forgot to ask my therapist while I was still seeing her. I've also read it could be projection but it doesn't add up due to some of the situations I've experienced this with.

I hate this. I've dealt with this since maybe 10? It's very rare but when it hits it hurts, sometimes physically in my core. Like, I got my own s*** to deal with man! You probably doing "better" than me in life why am I carrying your hypothetical pain

Most recent case is with a f***ing O'Driscoll from RDR

What is wrong with me son

I can't finish anything I try to eat

This year has been a test for me. Feels like with each passing year I dont get anywhere near better

tension relief

breath flowing feeling like a warm hug

yes im unloveable