Mental disorders don't in any way make you less of a person. Neurotypical people usually are the biggest pieces of s*** and dumbest anyway
Love yourself at all costs

Had a freak out today, dont even think the kolonopin calms me down like it should. Maybe X**** is better, i got that too lol

F*** life bruh, s***s endlessly meaningless and empty

I think I'm having a full on psychotic breakdown. I wanna bury myself alive. This is awful

I don't know why I'm crying. I don't want anyone to see me like this

Really not liking myself right now

pretty sure I have a mild form of depression at the moment

hey

Hey 👀

today was the best day I had in a minute

all because I broke my sobriety streak and got high lmaoooooo

Haha it's alright man moderation is key. I smoke weed everyday and I don't even think I enjoy that s*** like that I just do it to normalize myself.

Just feel blank and empty. Nothing to look forward to.

Gotta make some goals for yourself. I think I made a post earlier saying that my lack of goals really f***s my mental. There's not much I aspire to do. Or care to do. But I'm gonna start forcing myself to do s***. And maybe try to come up with some goals for myself.

not weed benzos. I need to get off these asap

Almost 5am and never have i wanted to die this much in my life.

Ahh f***. I had to kick benzos once, it was the worst s*** ever wouldn't wish that s*** on my worst enemy. I did it cold turkey but really I just went on like month bender taking high amounts mixing it with alcohol blacking out got fired from a job too, a lot of other mad s*** too. I would imagine it's harder to quit if you're taking that s*** daily for a long period of time. My point still stands tho if you need a X**** here and there to feel okay than so be it man life is short f*** it. Just try not to depend on it and let it be your only source for joy

Aye man you need someone to talk to?? I'll give you my number dead ass

I really needed it yesterday cause the anxiety was too much when I woke up. I was 7 days clean at that point but I was still having really bad anxiety and depression. The withdrawals were the worst, im diagnosed with bipolar with psychotic features and i was hallucinating out the ass

Yeah bruh don't even feel bad about that. The X**** withdrawal is the worst because all you need is a X**** to alleviate the symptoms hence addiction. 7 days clean is a great start man for reals thats something to be proud of. Sorry you're diagnosed with all that stuff man. Life's a b**** but we just gotta keep it pushing you know.

Thanks but I'll be fine. I've been fighting with this s*** for almost 10 years now and I keep beating it so I'm just used to it now

im depressed as s***