@Cats

You ever take mdma?

I think I’m hypomanic and pretty impulsive rn.
But I have MDMA at hand and kinda want to partake

Nah I've never taken

ive always wanted to try mdma but it conflicted with the meds i was on

yes they can

do they still conflict with the meds your currently on

looks like my dr is gonna put me on parnate, unless I can beg for a dopamine agonist

yeah apparently it does with the new one i just started

damn that sucks

mdma is something im interested in

i wish people didn't run away from me

guess I'm just that bad

ive been starved of love and affection since birth and ive always brushed the notion off but its really getting to me my body feels cold n hollow like somethings leaving me lol

why do I feel like s*** whenever I wake up??

I need to calm the f*** down

I have zero energy and motivation

only anger and depression

I just wanna smoke my cigs and drink my coffee in peace but my thoughts are racing

not even music helps at this point

f***

I need more anxiolytics

my appointment with my doc is a week away and I honestly dont know what to say or where to start from

so I decided to take notes of my darkest thoughts and share 'em

I hope I dont end up in a psych ward again

Why do I hate sleep so much?

I avoid sleep when going through manic phases like rn cause I find it a waste

Yeah that’s kinda how I feel about sleep lmao like I wanna just be up doing stuff even tho I’m not doing anything productive at all

Ah man I feel like I don’t deserve to be here sometimes, so many people have lost their lives and here I am just wasting mine, waste waste waste

Can’t even handle my own mind how the f*** I’m supposed to lead a successful life

i miss being close to someone

Intimacy in any form is a great feeling... too bad people don't like me enough to get there

Think I should go to rehab for my mental health and addiction, this cycle doesn’t seem to end it’s been years and i don’t have anyone to talk to about this s*** even if I did I don’t think it would help. I need to learn how to help myself