Mods took my avi away

new schedule is wake up at 6am, get to work by 7, get off at 4 and go home, make some dinner, smoke a blunt and go to bed around 7-8pm. being awake less means less time for pain its actually been pretty good.

we can match now

love to ya

hope you doing better soon, brother

i embrace the darkness cause i know i'm the light

Shrooms people

Try them

Then keep your thoughts out the gutter

And plot your next positive move and make sure you execute it to the level of excellence and no less and keep doing that

No matter if people like you or appreciate you

Do s*** that makes you feel like a better person every day and smile just because you can whenever you can.

You can do this.. I know you can

But YOU CANNOT keep wallowing In your misery and self pity

You will stay in the gutter that way.

Love

People don't realise how beneficial psychedelics can be..

Can’t sleep

Wish things were differents

Hope u good fam @FIFTY950

I don’t know how I’m gonna go to work today. F***

i wanna kms

Never felt so alone <33

maaan this girl at work keeps trying to make me come out about my bipolar and borderline diagnosis. She's not the first one bringing it up neither. Basically asking me why my mood is shifting all the time, why it's always extreme etc...

Should I admit it? my paranoia makes me think she's out to f*** me over. I know i'm tripping but is it a bad idea?

F*** my life I dont wanna live Death before dishonor I am not a pig

My phone is literally cancer . My life is fine on paper . I’m attractive, i have friends and I’m achieving my goals , but my god the s*** i see on social media makes me Feel the opposite in my self . Also The way i wait around for text and overthink minor s*** . It’s wild

so I should open up? it would be nice I guess. but i'm afraid it'll f*** with my job.

Never give up 🤍

Don’t do this. This life is what you make it. There is a lot of negativity in the world but you can make this experience what you choose to make it. I always thought I’d be dead by 31. And if I didn’t die, I would take my life. I would even say it a lot. Then had some situations occur where I really almost died. But thankful I’m out of that mindset and don’t even consider that happening now.

What’s going on Fam?

I don't have control of my mind it's in chaos. I've thought about suicide for 14 years, attempted it at a young age too. Mentally I'm good right now, as in this moment i'm writing this. But that can change in a second. I've accepted my fate, know it's gonna happen and it's just so peaceful. no more anxiety about it.

sometimes I be thinking that I got control of my mind but suddenly I crash and burn in depression and realize that I was just manic.

really can't do this anymore

im back 😞