i just don't want to be hypervigilant and paranoid almost every time i go out into the big cities like some s*** gonna happen to me

i don't want to be paranoid and anxious all the f***ing time

The xan tolerance has builtup so we back to are regularly scheduled programming but got the wifi back so at least the dissociation will help.
Im more scared to step out of my front door everyday but I'm more reckless than ever. Texted this chick straight up do you wanna f*** me. Cursed out my boss. I have no motive or moral compass anymore. Im just kinda thrown into life with no context

scared that no one will bother with my cry for help. no one really cares at the end of the day

It's my day off and I've been anxious all day again. I think it's because my body has become used to panicking over the past week.

feel like s*** even on meds

I've been considering getting antidepressants, it's getting to the point where I do nothing but sleep all the time to avoid thinking. I've been unmedicated cause I thought I could handle it but I think I'm just going to get worse

i'm feeling like rue in that one episode of euphoria rn

I hate the feeling of dread when you have to be in some type of social situation that gives u anxiety.

i'm always worrying about those moments

pretty sure I've been depressed for a good 2 and a half years. I can't even love myself yet i keep trying to fill this void in my life with different women.

hello?

godspeed brother

My best friend since like 2006....hung out all the time. Was part of our group, hung out weekly around 2009 - 2012.
Last 2 years it's almost impossible to even contact him. Dude vanished and is clearly an alcoholic. We never hear from him.

Looking at old pics of us hanging out and I honestly feel like crying right now. It's just f***ing depressing.

Hanging out with the group every Tuesday EVERY week....doing what we all love to do together for 4 years.

Last 2 - 3 years I feel like I literally hang out with them as a group maybe 8 times a year. Everyone changes.

I just can't deal with it. I struggle about it every day, constantly.

is anybody out there

Thought i was One of the few , but I’ve had so many convos recently with folk and most of us need a helping hand tbh . Kind of wish it was more isolated cause no one should have to go through this.

as long as you can hear me

u ok

Cus, I barely know any of you niggas, but it just feels better being engaged here lowkey.

New forum, new beginnings. Please try to feel better today guys 🙏🏽

❤