Yevin

6y

I chew gum to help with that, always carrying a pack around

Emotion

6y

I’ve struggled with numerous mental health issues for years stemming from traumatic childhood experiences but for the most part I feel like I’ve been able to just listen to music and smoke and chill

Over these last 3/4 months or so I’ve been feeling the most miserable I’ve ever been even to the point where I’m just living like a zombie everyday from me numbing myself

I thought my problem was a void my ex left back in April but I’ve been dating and f***ing and all that and it’s just making me miss her even more.

That coupled with personal issues, watching Australia and thousands of animals dying, the way the US is heading, how disconnected and uninformed today’s youth is (WW3 Memes etc), the concentration camps in China, people dying everyday because they can’t afford to keep stuffing big Pharma’s pockets, record number of homicides in 2019 in my city, Mexican children in detention centers, climate change showing its teeth a lot earlier than projected, now this s*** with the US and Iran....I can’t take this s*** man.

Worst part is the thing that’s kept me going for so long (music) just continues to become more and more fueled by clout and how viral it is along with the China data vacuum Tiktok slowly becoming the tastemaker is really pushing me towards the Edge. I have friends and family I love but idk how much longer I can keep pretending as if something good will happen and things will get better when year after year it gets worse

I think sometimes people mistake complacency with optimism

I can’t tell you how much it makes my stomach turn to see people live so happily and so unaware of what’s going on rn in this world. Maybe it’s because I live in the west but driving home from work listening to the bs they talk about on the radio (my phone had died) and just how distracted or apathetic A LOT of people are just makes me even more depressed because We’re powerless.

An image that keeps replaying in my mind was when I was driving home today and saw some Jeep in front of me swerving and continuously just slamming their brakes and ashing their cigarette out the window then throwing the bud out the window, me passing the Jeep and seeing it was some stupid b**** talking on the phone with a big ass gap in front of her so she was driving stupid because she was distracted because she doesn’t care about other drivers

Those are the “nobody” voters

That is America

Psychodrama

6y

something good WILL happen

The law of attraction is real imo...you just have to visualize what you want from your life and put in hard work so what you want from your life becomes a reality

but that's just on a personal scale.

On a global scale.....the world is f***ed up, it always has been and s*** will get even worse cause we reap what we sow

Emotion

6y

Eh f*** all that law of attraction s*** but I do agree that things won’t change unless you do

There is no god we are the gods of our own world we have the power to do whatever we choose and everything is optional

Psychodrama

6y

I respectfully disagree on the matter of God being real.

whether you believe in God or not, it's up to you to change your life

let's look at it from both sides...

If you're an atheist there's no afterlife and it's up to you to find meaning in you life.
If you're a Christian, there a saying that goes like this ''God helps those that help themselves''

so at the end of the day, you cant get ''out of your head'' or improve your lifestyle by pissing and moaning

CurlyZ

6y

I just did a 2 and half hour drive just listening to music and thinking about s*** and managed arrive to my destination pissed off just by thinking about all the really frustrating s*** in my life that’s going on rn. I managed pissed myself off completely alone bro.

CurlyZ

6y

I’m foreal looking at secluded little cabins and considering going full Justin Vernon in February with an ounce and some papers.

Need some time to think about my direction and express myself creatively without the distractions of work and people. I’ve been made to feel like any time not spent working or with my friends is time wasted and I just want to live without any commitments or guilt for awhile.

rezyk

6y

the end just never comes

CurlyZ

6y

I’m foreal looking at secluded little cabins and considering going full Justin Vernon in February with an ounce and some papers.

Need some time to think about my direction and express myself creatively without the distractions of work and people. I’ve been made to feel like any time not spent working or with my friends is time wasted and I just want to live without any commitments or guilt for awhile.