deep rest

It’s like everyday is a boxing match between the best and worst parts of myself. And the fix is in.

Thanks, I hope so

ready2die

literally comedic timing

don’t wanna feel anything anymore

hmm any ideas for not thinking about exes? the trouble i have rn is that i feel i made a mistake breaking up w/ her but this is actually some crazy thinking on my part because we've been done for years and i'm only sulking in these comparisons cus i've recently fallen to a low point (got unemployed, and also feeling like living back in my home state isn't the best thing for me if i want to move forward with what i want my life to be). what i need to be doing is not entertaining thoughts of her and how i was back then and instead make some moves to get outta here and improve my condition. however i am having extreme trouble getting myself to do anything. i try to put energy into thinking of a cover letter or looking for jobs and it doesn't click, i allow and cause myself to get distracted. wtf.

I don't feel like a person

How do you cope when nobody cares. No one cares about me in any aspect they just wanna see me be successful like aight

I’m just minding my own business, can’t this girl just leave me alone

I’m this close to just f***in quiting my job

Can’t take this place anymore

You work hard while the s***ty workers get chance after chance

I miss my childhood terribly. Especially those last few years of elementary school. Sometimes I feel like everything I do is an attempt to relive it one way or another.

Or that one summer when I was 16.

the past always seems so much better...

I've been meditating a lot lately. It made me realize my self esteem and confidence peaked years ago and I haven't gotten back to those levels since, not even close.