happy cause: getting back with my boyfriend even though he knows I cheated on him for 3 years cause he lived 8000km away from me, and I had another relationship that he didn't know about. we are back together though. do I deserve it? nah. are we happier than ever before? yea for sure.

sad because: I dont know wtf I'm doing on this planet. I'm walking through my circles like a ghost, noone even texts me anymore. ghosting all my old friends. ghosting my therapist, telling my bf that I'd rather be dead. having so many talents and potential and not using it yet. burning all my 20k on my bank account because I am not working currently. anxiety in general. nothing pleases me, nothing hurts me. i am f***ing depressed. i am gonna turn 29 soon so I need to figure it out soon.

"noone even texts me anymore. ghosting all my old friends. ghosting my therapist, "

Maybe why no one texts you anymore is because of the second half of this quote lol

U old as hell to be posting the way u do

yeah u need some help

please listen to my story

where can I get it ? a better therapist?

how bad is it?

therapy is largely a racket and a sham your problems only exist in so much as you talk about them

wait I don't understand this sentence, can put some punctuation?

not reading all that

you either get a sick pump or you dont

sorry i'm not an english native, what is a sick pump?

so if poor people stop talking about being poor they won’t be poor anymore

you should probably get a job and focus on your mental

Folks be on here talking mad s*** then be posting s*** like this

when you lift weights and all the blood goes to the muscle you're hitting

You need to leave your boyfriend. Sounds like you putting all your emotional baggage on him which is selfish as f*** b.

but we just started and I think I loved him since 2018.

You cheated multiple times and keep telling him you’re suicidal. What are you looking to gain by telling him that? Sympathy or what?

🤣🤣🤣

he's the only one I can tell something like that, my deepest secrets

Hitting the gym > getting scammed by 5 therapists before you find a good one

I open myself up to him and only him, I think I trust him fully. I don't deserve him, and he deserves someone better/stable. but he loves me so much and if I let him go his world will be shattered