Imma try bro

Haven’t smoked for a few days and feel less depressed. Going strong in the gym too imma focus on that

Not a good idea for mental health issues

Last thing you wanna do is trip off mushrooms when you're mentally unstable

Helped me 🤷🏽‍♂️

Funnily enough I’ve experimented with lsd and shrooms a few times and every time after for a few months it felt like I was finally ok. I think it was because in this vulnerable state I was able to confront my trauma. Still not something I do regularly just because I know it can go wrong fast. Thinking about looking into microdosing tho.

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Look for free services or ones u can afford

Like do research into what help u can get if possible

Therapist, meditation, mindfulness, really embracing the now & knowing that the memories are not your current reality. Also subconsciously your warranted resistance to the memories make them more powerful but this is something u would want to work thru slowly w a professional

Eckhart tolle - the power of now book helped me w anxiety, never been thru anything like u tho but still maybe check some of his vids on YouTube for free

I wish you the best brother, continue to be brave & keep trying to help yourself 💙

& remember that everything is ok in this moment, that’s all you’ve got to get through

No offense but I'm not sure what you expect to get posting this here. You should be seeking advice from a professional

You sure about that

U from Benghazi bro? @op

man im not a doctor bruh I just want op off that other s***. thats even worse fr

hope he get help

When I was 9 I ended up having a breakdown at my school and they sent me to the hospital because I was so out of it that I was threatening to kill myself. They diagnosed me there and held me for a year. I still barely spoke English at this point and my parents weren’t knowledgeable in US law so I was stuck there and couldn’t advocate for myself. My roommate was an older white boy he was about 14 he would bang on the floors and wall’s constantly to trigger my episodes and would beat me whenever I screamed or cried and when I tried praying. He also molested and violated me in ways I can’t even describe. I would always try to tell the nurses what was happening but since I didn’t know English they would just think I was hysterical and eventually started ignoring me. It got so bad that while I was sleeping he tried to rape me and I finally fought back but ended up cracking open his head. I thought I killed him and thought that the hospital workers were going to kill me. Ended up being put in a cell by myself and wasn’t allowed to speak to the other kids or have any interaction with them at all. Still struggle with being touched even by my own fiancé and it makes me feel so dirty and ashamed even though I know I did nothing wrong. Only people I’ve shared this with are my sister and fiancé.

Sirte.

I smoke but I limit my usage because I know it can make me uncomfortable and only certain strains

Aww man

Hope you will find peace, nobody should have to deal with that

It's different from what you're dealing with but I deal with severe mental health conditions that have left me disabled for a long time now

I'm on my own for the most part and have been through a lot of life threatening situations because of that and have had to fight for a lot of resources that aren't easy to find/see at first

I'm not sure where you're at or what I can do but if you'd be open to it we can text over IG, signal, telegram whatever and I can share some of my experiences with securing resources/health supports and see what I can do in terms of helping you find similar resources in your area

thank you, I appreciate all of you guys. I don't ever feel comfortable speaking about these things but since this anonymous I feel like I can speak my truth without feeling shame or judgement. it may sound wild but ktt has been a place where I've felt safe from the pain and all the people I've become friends with because of this site have been the best to me especially when I barely had anyone irl. I love y'all fr

just gonna say i think a lot of people could benefit if u shared your full story with the world.... writing a memoir or vlogging or otherwise. when ur ready. for now, i hope things get better

hope u n op get better twin ❤️ been sleep deprived since a kid n taking supplements (magnesium glycinate, gaba, glycine n ashwagandha) helped me improve the quality of my sleep

Can you please describe these supplements and what exactly they do?

Pretty decent writer so that may be something to consider thank you for the suggestion and kind words

glycine helps you reach deep sleep quicker and stabilizes your sleep rhythms
gaba is a must especially if u been dealing with paranoia ptsd n s*** like that for a long time bc your brain always on some bs to the point where u cant concentrate on anything due to it being too active and always thinking about potential danger.. it basically tells your nervous system to chill
i also take niacin w it , from what i heard it helps those above reach your brain quicker
ashwagandha is just a herb that increases your t and sleep quality/time
magnesium got hella different types but glycinate is the one that helps u relax, reduce anxiety insomnia etc
so i take all 5 in the evening and also might take some extra gaba whenever my brain is being uncomfortably active

Dude that’s not fair that you had to deal with all of that man. If nothing else you have your faith, fiancé and family. The only thing I can do is hope that your condition improves.

Have you tried channeling your frustration into artistic outlets? That may help with the ideations. If you’re exhausted and can’t sleep, it can’t hurt to try, although it will be very hard. Better than debating suicide internally, I would think.