Lock Summons

2y

Im not gonna argue with you over details. I know what we had.

Sol Sabbath

2y

Not so much matter of the attention, but the topic

I started and was like man this s*** wack!

Urameshii

2y

Look Op life is a beautiful thing people do have to die and when we do we are at peace just have to move on let their lessons be your guide

You got this fam

TTU

2y

ffs

Lock Summons

2y

Starting to question why I even bothered posting. People on this site are kind of pricks lol

KFA

2y

Alright OP, cool and all but Ima try to keep it short. I joined an internship program last August that ends in June. Part of the program is having 4 interns stay in a house funded by the program and we are designated to various non profits.
I became very close with a girl in this program. We connected pretty quickly, especially since we were the two who seemed to really put forth an effort for the group activities and such.
I had moved to a new city, and she was the first person here who I felt truly comfortable with. Easily the closest person I had in the area.
Well...she is a soccer player. Played in college and was trying to continue to play professionally. She broke the news to me a few weeks ago that her agent was working on a contract for her to play in Finland. A week or so later, the contract was a done deal and she literally left within the week.
I'm happy for her. I know this is her dream, and I fully support her, but I didn't think it would happen so fast and so far away. I have 3 months left of this program with her empty room across from mine being reminded of her.
I told her how I felt about her before she left. I didn't get mushy with it. Just said how much I have enjoyed spending time with her and I hope we can keep in touch. She agreed, and said she plans to come back in the future and wants to see me again. I also left her a note saying shes always welcome to hmu about anything and I'm always happy to hear from her.
Despite the kind words and good talks before she left, I don't expect anything. The future is definitely uncertain, and who knows what could happen. It's been really tough. I've felt really depressed and it almost feels like I'm grieving over a death. I know she's obviously alive, but it's the death of an everyday close connection we shared in this house and this program.
It also doesn't help that im still not certain what ill do after this program ends or where Ill be. I'm a fresh college graduate trying to find my first real job. And the uncertainty of that mixed with missing her feels like a lot at times.
Ima keep soldiering on. We will always be friends, but damn man...this has been tough.

Sol Sabbath

2y

I miss these. Was just on KTT1 where it seemed to happen more.

hoopsplayer21

2y

sounds like you shoulda got mushy with her OP tbh.

if you cared enough to make a thread on ktt you certainly cared enough to dump you're heart out to her in attempts of continuing the relationship with certainty.

best of luck though with the constant wondering though.

Lock Summons

2y

you dont know s*** about my situation lol, I told you i was gonna keep in short

Love Life Utopia

2y

get a grip my boy

Sol Sabbath

2y

I miss these. Was just on KTT1 where it seemed to happen more.

fiveprestos

2y

Sorry, but this is never the move. You keep it short direct and sincere

Danny

2y

I'm sure she's smiling at you from above. Make her proud

Knx

2y

Wow there buddy,
Emotional much?

Lock Summons

2y

um...yeah...it's an emotional situation for me

Lock Summons

2y

um...yeah...it's an emotional situation for me

TTU

2y

You make it sound like you travelled the globe

hoopsplayer21

2y

and i dont mean typing a f***ing novel. simply saying tell her how you actually feel. dont make it some riddle or puzzle. get however mushy you feel is appropriate.

Knx

2y

P****!!!
You had plenty of time.