ogs in the pic look so judgmental makes it funnier

Ffs I'm listening to this Oprah podcast with this woman Martha Beck and that s*** just made me cry, because this woman just described how she had this same experience of this bright light and the feelings that accompany it. She also happened to be the exact same age (29) as I was when I experienced it. Ffs.

Idk, all I can really do is be grateful for I know I'm truly guided. It's got me f***ed up though, in a good way, I think.

It's just another confirmation that all the 'crazy insights' I've been having since last year, which I have all written down in my journal since last year are true, at least to me. And I say that as if this isn't like the 50th confirmation or sign that I've received since last year already, but for some reason you sometimes even start to doubt or question yourself because 'the world' is just so out to tell you different. But I should know better, most people don't actually know s***, they just agree on majority rules because it's the safe thing to do, because deep down they all feel fragile and insecure. Which is okay, because we'll all find our way somehow someway someday.

And yeah, I swear 29 is a special age. As Kendrick said on DNA:
At 29, I've done so well, hit cartwheel in my estate
And I'm gon' shine like I’m supposed to
One day, when I feel like it I'm also going to write out how DAMN. is obviously about spiritually awakening and that Kendrick obviously went through it too. That man is messaging you in that album and most of y'all ain't even realise it

The DNA video

i'm so glad you found this thread

i'm just gonna start typing so that i can share what made me make this thread

and then i'll start responding

i'll start from my earliest memories

the first experience happened
when i was around 6 or 7

i was at my grandmother's house and i told her that i didn't need to eat... i could just think about the food in my mind and then i would taste it and feel full

i remember her reaction

it was like

and knowing what i know now
i think she recognized who i
would become today...
(more on this later)

my second experience happened
with my father outside of our church

i just knew he was going to say

"hey, do you wanna go to burger king"

and not in the "this is an expected behavior" kind of way... it popped into my mind and then he said it

i distinctly remember that

and of course, having
experienced it later in life
much more often, it makes sense

flash forward

in 2011, i broke up with my
girlfriend after my high school
graduation and i was down

my family and i went to florida not long after
downloading albums was still a thing back then so i loaded up on some albums

i stumbled across Aaliyah's self titled album and i listened to it as i fell asleep the first night there

i had one of the most
realistic dreams i've ever had
about her... and so naturally
i made a mixtape about it

it'll be 10 years old this year
but it's still one of my favorite
things that i've ever done

i have felt connected to her ever since

so you can imagine how
i felt when i saw the hiiipower video
and saw kendrick talk about a similar experience

flash forward to 2013

i signed my first record contract

and my grandmother
wrote me a 60 page letter by hand

about how to find
myself as a creator
and avatar

my grandmother was
old enough to pick cotton

she had a third grade education

so where did this information come from?

i read the first page of the letter in 2013 and it scared me because we'd never talked about any of that stuff... but i knew it was true.

she transitioned in 2018

and i found the letter... it was everything i needed when i decided to read it

and ever since i did...

i have become more in tune with all of this

flash forward to last week

i arrive in LA after a hell of a journey (more on this later)

i pick an airbnb

and the owner of the house channels a message from my grandmother

she said that the universe is on my side

this man had no idea who i was and yet he just started talking as if he knew me deeply

i have always believed
but that is the moment
when i knew that this
really is the matrix

this really is avatar

this really is all that

nahmean

i've since gotten into reiki

and i am hoping to study astrology
with ricky williams and his mentor

i am planning on dedicating my life to helping people

and i want to build a real school for gifted youngsters

because that is what i so desperately needed when i was young

i really felt like a mutant

i particularity resonated
with the morlocks on x-men evolution

but yeah

my grandmother always
used to call me mr. president

i feel like i will be a leader

and it would be a true joy
to make sure kids with gifts
can express themselves as
they should... as we all should

forgot a memory

i was at the DMV last time i
had to take a picture for my license

so like 2014-16 or something

the lady at the counter looked at me

looked at the rings on my hand

gold lion on my left
black lion on my right

and she said

"i can feel your energy... i can tell that you are struggling to find the balance between light and dark. that's why you wear the gold and the black lion."

i wonder if that was my grandmother too

anyways, that always stuck
with me because she was spot on...

i would say i've made
peace with my shadow(s)
ever since the moment at
the airbnb though

the owner did a meditation with
me and he helped me let go of a lot

i cried multiple times
throughout our interactions

i do that a lot whenever
we are on this subject

it just feels so good
to hear and feel the truth

i feel like i get super
charged whenever i hear it

idk if y'all have played star wars

knights of the old republic 1 and 2

but if you have, i feel like my journey is similar to both Revan and the Exile

i would say tarot has
helped me to develop
my abilities

i've always loved symbolism

i definitely read intuitively

i feel that way about
reading the room as well

i am hoping to master astral projection next

i was able to lucid dream as a kid

and i am excited at what i
will find with these new experiences

Haha s***, I def feel you on that crying when hearing the truth. Even though I have like 2 people irl that get it, it's always hard to really say how much another gets it as well, but it's enough for us to speak freely and have faith in what the other says is true. It's so extremely hard to communicate to some of my homies without looking crazy though. I don't even bother no more. I just go with the flow of life, refrain from judgement, and just have patience with all my brothers n sister that haven't gone within yet, because it's the only way to truly get it.

Love is everything though. Love is the light, and the light is love. I feel like I have a ton of perspectives to share still, but often times I just get stuck in how to say things. I'm barely 1 year into this journey though, so I know I got to have patience, let life unfold, and more will be revealed to me as I go.

Ugh, I'm breaking my brain trying to think of how to explain some of my realisations over the past year, but it's funny how words/language is so limited. I've had subjective experiences that I cannot explain, but it's helped me realise how there's no objective reality though. I guess that's one of the first illusions One should break. Life's exciting, and quite the crazy phenomenon though.

Aight, I feel like I'm on a tangent not saying much rn, plus I need to stop trying to explain, because it'll only backfire on me and obstruct my own learning and knowing.

I'll just end with livening this up with another clip

Truman Show >>>>>

I'll post my wacky interpretation of the DNA video tomorrow. I got it somewhere in my phone. Typed it out when I was trying to explain to my ex wtf I was realising about what life is, what we are, and how I am now seeing all the messaging in music, film, anime and just in how people behave.

Truly had me looking like
She really thought I was going a bit too far out, but nowadays she saying s*** like 'My bad, u was right, even then when I didn't see yet'

But yeah, my post on the first page already explains enough. The rest is up to you, the reader.

still gonna respond and share more

been v busy

but a lot is going on...

youtube.com/c/GaiaVideo

everything I see and say is bullshit
these phenomena in my life
are more common than a pulpit
plus death got a thing for me
i prolly need a full clip

I be having dreams that come true

Dreams inside dreams

Lucid dreams

Once I had a dream in a dream and these two girls told me that everyone is inter connected so be nice to everyone

Idk what’s that’s supposed to mean tho

felt compelled to share this with you

this is how i've been feeling lately

and how i feel whenever
i feel like i'm leveling up

I need to do my due diligence and check out out the vids Itt

whenever you decide to
spend the time, you won't regret it

if you've found your way into this thread, it means that you are supposed to be here

nahmean

also just based on the
vibe i get seeing you around

i can recommend books too if you're a reader

i'm actually making a discord for this

i think that'll help us all connect more

and i can share more in the moment stuff