My office environment isn't ready for outside of work me. I remember we had a discussion about weed and they were complaining about the smell and then was like "sound like you speaking from experience" and I'm just like yeah these niggas herbs

Kinda unrelated but I wish you could tell niggas who hold the door open when ur 8 miles away to f*** off and stop making do that awkward lil jog

Maybe if u weren’t so bitter people would enjoy talking to you is it that hard to put in a little effort to look nice and socialize maybe people treat you like an npc cause you act like a loser

Spineless people pleaser type post
Suck my nuts nerd

This is a v solid a***ysis and good insight on the issue and possible solution.
I believe rn I’m experiencing that detachment from desire of material gain in the way of money/things and figuring out what success looks like outside of that.

This paradigm shift ultimately led to the drawing of the curtains and the stuff I spoke about in OP

I feel like this s*** is eating me up inside out, like I can't even be myself even when I'm alone.

Whats your experience with this

yeah hitting rock bottom and no longer being concerned about social norms is really pretty dope

amending this to say that this doesn’t mean being rude or an a******, im just no longer changing the way i speak or guarding my real feelings… and i genuinely get the perception that other people appreciate that

I see where you’re coming from but I also think there might be some self consciousness/overthinking at play

I used to think I was overthinking s***, then I joined ktt2

do you feel socially isolated in your day-to-day life? if so, it makes sense that so many of your interactions don't feel real. I feel the same way sometimes. s*** is depressing. makes me feel like my friends & family don't really know me and like things like holidays are a waste of time. maybe that's part of why I ended up alone posting on ktt on thanksgiving.

Hmmmmmm

Yeah bro there's this thing called a pandemic

We're young bro so I dont stress it, issa day by day thing and all we can do is try to improve each day

I'm really awkward when it comes to social interactions and it really eats me, whenever I'm alone my mind keeps replaying every cringe and I'm kind developing a physical reaction like an actual tick.

projecting

ur op is talkig about speaking to people in a certain way to get exactly what u want get a grip

the things beyond money are making the people you like happy and having fun

money is important too it shows that you are good at something and allows you to have fun with your friends

having a creative hobby and staying in shape are also needed

When will I feel normal again

Just got diagnosed with ADHD
Been acting like someone/myself for all my life practically lmao

Now i finally now why i always got behind, cause we simply not wired like regular "NPOs"

The reason why i pre script convos is cause off major anxiety alert and depression
Cant even pick a phone Without letting it ring first and really imagining the entire convo, what the other person might say,, should i call back etc?
It's unbearable

And by the time u can be the real you,u already scared the people off or they just dont understand you cause u have major problems articulating yourself coping with anxiety, a mind that rushes at 1000 km/h with 1000 thoughts buzzing around and u already know u got speech impairments jheez

No 2021 hasnt been fun at all
And my undiagnosed adhd really put a sledgehammer out, smacked into the darkest realms possible

Yea we’re all unpaid actors and life is very strange what else is new 😔

Never

i read this thinking it was op and i couldnt understand s***, time to log off.

@op yea it's crazy