TIIMMY BURNER

3y

My office environment isn't ready for outside of work me. I remember we had a discussion about weed and they were complaining about the smell and then was like "sound like you speaking from experience" and I'm just like yeah these niggas herbs

LordPrettyFlackoJR

3y

Just got diagnosed with ADHD
Been acting like someone/myself for all my life practically lmao

Now i finally now why i always got behind, cause we simply not wired like regular "NPOs"

The reason why i pre script convos is cause off major anxiety alert and depression
Cant even pick a phone Without letting it ring first and really imagining the entire convo, what the other person might say,, should i call back etc?
It's unbearable

And by the time u can be the real you,u already scared the people off or they just dont understand you cause u have major problems articulating yourself coping with anxiety, a mind that rushes at 1000 km/h with 1000 thoughts buzzing around and u already know u got speech impairments jheez

No 2021 hasnt been fun at all
And my undiagnosed adhd really put a sledgehammer out, smacked into the darkest realms possible

lorddell

3y

Yep lmfao

LordPrettyFlackoJR

3y

Its all fun u joyful, wild fantasy and imagination with a mind that goes like a Tesla, its all fun and witty i agree
Very entertaining, like i think my ADHD really helps me alot as an artist/entertainer

But ppl dont realize this mask, this constant overthinking, constant balance seeking battle between what u can do/show/say and what u cant
Add that up with the fact that were bad at reading ppl i mean ppl didnt really didnt get it or thought i was joking when i said;
MFERS i BEEN having major anxiety issues in public places, way before internet needed those stamps in order to feel special, to me goin to a dinner, was like being hung to the back of a monster truck pulling my forward uphill through the mud and stones and trees and whatnots, it was and still is mentally exhausting AF

Being diagnosed explains like 25 years my life but it doesn't help, just explains, goin to get meds this afternoon, overthinking mind and depression is really the ideal method of torture for anyone who wanna play Judas ;( my own mind playing tricks

Philips

3y

I feel like this s*** is eating me up inside out, like I can't even be myself even when I'm alone.

big glutes

3y

totally get how you feel OP. i be doing weird s*** like walk into a clothing store mask off with a scowl on my face just to see if the 19 year old shop assistant is game enough to tell me to put a mask on. walk out, then walk into another store but with my head down avoiding eye contact looking real meek and s***-- i wanna see if they're more likely to tell me to put mine on.

or sometimes i just be choosing random mfs to stare down in the mall. i get so bored of daily life i resort to s*** like this.

big glutes

3y

totally get how you feel OP. i be doing weird s*** like walk into a clothing store mask off with a scowl on my face just to see if the 19 year old shop assistant is game enough to tell me to put a mask on. walk out, then walk into another store but with my head down avoiding eye contact looking real meek and s***-- i wanna see if they're more likely to tell me to put mine on.

or sometimes i just be choosing random mfs to stare down in the mall. i get so bored of daily life i resort to s*** like this.