Until I get to that ultralight beam...

Am 25

Yet i feel like literally no one can hold a mfin normal ass convo
They always gotta talk about their "problems" which are just minor af things and roughly translates into;
I have nothing really to offer but jus give me some sort of attention

Like this past year literally no one felt genuine?
Everyone just talks about d****, s***and havin a good af time
Then once u reveal ur true feelings?

They shove them away for theirs,so they can just take the subject over, dramatize they scenario and there i stand again;
Brick 1

I had a f***in mental breakdown last week
I see my plug, turns out to be gay and crushing on me
I meet my best friend later, who just keeps talking about how much he "loves black women" while constantly referring to my sister ....

Then i meet my gf and she just seems to be happy she has someone to talk to

Why do i say this?
Cause its funny to me how people only turn out to be sad when someone else, and when this someone else has to specifically address it

Like how didnt ppl notice this past year i been skinny and quiet af?
Cause they don't care, as long as u are there even as a mere prop,theyre happy

Am the one who is posed to laugh right?
Were bankrupt, lost our home,just lost ma car on the middle of a high way in the rain, family is literally looking for its last rope to hang on

And all dis year no one ever ASKED me how i was doing

And this is where my mistake lays, i should've said stop myself...
Like when i/we was struggling i put everything to da side for them, stooopid parties where they just being d***gies; yup

Talk to no. Lifers and hear them fantasize about whatever manifestation of grandioso theyll accomplish, doin nothin else but talk about it all day; yup

Maybe its just environment, but i just notice how many ppl are really just plants

Like i been laughed at these past 2 years for being a soccer player?
By ppl who do nothing else but smoke, try look fashionable anf thats it

Meanwhile w/o bragging im a hometown hero/famous person,i have like over a dozen news paper articles
So yeah it irks me to see who the ppl are tjat be talking down,. Always tje same ppl

And worst is? They dare accuse u of their wrongdoings or cause they jelly they just tear u down

Like fr i can't talk to anyone here

Also the fact that alot of answers arise, about ly childhood and how my roots really played a bigger role than i ever imagined
For example,the wall im walking on again;
I HAVE NO ONE HERE THAT CAN RELATE TO ANY PROBLEM I ENDURE,. CAUSE MFERS IS WHITE SPOILED PEOPLE, FURTHEST THING AWAU FROM MY ROOTS...
whats racism to them? Whats even a problem to them?
Like fr ppl so empty

Shifting baseline syndrome

Currently in the origin story

May all beings be happy

hate being a wage cuck but being unemployed is even worse if only I had skills

Go get it then

Bruh this hospital food got my stomach doing olympian level gymnastics. Might call off early

How does one f*** up pancakes

Dog

Starting to realize it ain’t me that be awkward in social situations. I be chilling. It be other niggas.

he opened the fridge and said "yuhhh"

coffee is so op

I’m f***in that hoe on the LOOOOOO

What’s the point in slowing down likes

Covid f***ing up my semester man I'm so bummed

@Josuke

I just walked by 3 female officers and called them ma’amses and they laughed at me

Calling them Ladies wouldn’t of sounded right

Ma’amses im a f***in idiot

How’s everything going fam?

I think you @ me like a few weeks ago but I had requested a mute at the time lol.

Man I’m chillin honestly

I’m in that weird spot where I’m not commissioned yet so officers don’t gotta give me respect but I’m above other cadets.

I’m getting ready to go be a grader at an upcoming combined ftx at Bragg this next weekend

I just felt like such a f***ing idiot with those female officers tho. Have you ever ran into a situation like that? Wtf am I supposed to call them?

Nah I’ve never had that happen.

At least they just laughed at you, some of these officers be tweaking nigga yelled at me n my friend for not saluting him when he came at us from the SIDE

How much longer til your gold bar?

I'm just sick of being so reachable. I'm so bored of people feeling entitled to replies from me, some days I just don't feel like talking to other people but because of how attached people are to their phones these days they assume I'm ignoring them, which isn't the case, I just want space.

life is what you make it