my loneliness gets the best of me.

no one cares, no one is waiting for me.
life moves on so fast. these past few months i've been struggling to keep up.

i want to disappear.

looking up

I'm worried one of these days I'll start conversing with the AI

In light of the Jay X case;
I do street music s***, do u know how many women/girls, bitter ones, purposefully walk in front of me, they eyes full of evil and they want us to crash against each other
Cause they think it would get me out of my zone or that they'd be hurt?

U know what I do?

I keep walking straight ahead right at em
Elbow point right at them and have it clash with they shoulder/neck

I don't look back, I know it hurt them

If u wanna play victim or like a toxic miserable b****, you'll get yours

C it like this;
When people say u got very big charisma, energy, always dressed on fleek and a beautiful voice
There's gonna be people that will think the complete opposite

Add being black in the mix and it's troubles

Literally see the demons brewing in they eyes when I lock eyes

Swear, I hate attracting gay ppl
I mean it's okay to talk, but they always gotta try and flirt/touch u smh

my art is getting kinda intense

Idk what to buy anymore

Same

honestly i rarely find people really ugly
i'm just not specially attracted 90% of the time

We gon make it

I really am in love with a dumbass and she's going to bring me down with her.

I dreamed allot this night.
I dreamed a song and a melody.
I was mowing the law and the music came out of the lawnmower.

I woke up and kept humming the melody and later opened up the laptop and recorded it

musicians die too much

.that’s it that’s the verse.

Invest in living artists.

3k

Handle your adult business and responsibilities but never kill your child like curiosities, interests, and hobbies if they still give you happiness.

The free single man definitely gets the enjoy all that more than the married with kids man as time moves forward.

Feelin suici Lately

I LOVE ART

RIP to tuppence aka tubs the best and most loyal little dog anyone could ever ask for

we all loved you so much and you brought such joy into our lives. you were a little bundle of happiness and meant so much to us all ever since the moment you were unexpectedly born during a really horrible moment in our lives.

im going to miss the sound of your little paws on the floor and the way you would follow me around the house and get so excited when i came home from being away for months on end. i missed you every second i was gone and i wish i could take you everywhere. even though you were always surrounded by everyone who loved you anyway i know you loved me the most and i hope you know i loved you too more than anything else in the world.

the last week was horrible seeing such a sweet little baby gradually fade away. you really didnt deserve to suffer but at least now you can rest after a life where you gave us all the love you possibly could.

i miss you so much already. you were my best friend ever and a piece of me has died today but ill never ever forget you.

until next time. i love you tubs ❤️